A Wish

I wish for many things just like everyone else. I wish I was skinnier and prettier. I wish I was a smart person who didn't have to study and play games all day. I wish I was more outgoing, meeting people so I can make new connections. I wish I can be happy even when I'm sad. And what I said isn't even a millionth of what I really want and wish for. I'm probably at my PMS-ing stage of the month but I'm happy that these thoughts can come to my head and sit there letting me think.

But honestly, what is the point of all this thinking. It doesn't lead to anywhere. This thinking is like seeing a gun. If I wanted to do anything, to see any change, I can't just stare at it but actually pull the trigger. I need to literally shoot for my goal. But I'm not.

I'm just sitting there, watching the time pass by, the people moving on while I'm staying back. I really want to stand and walk, walk forward and not look back. Walk and fall with no regrets, then get up and try to run. Will it ever get me anywhere? Will I choose the right path in the process? Will this make my wish come true? In reality, we won't know until we see, but personally, I think the answer to those questions are all "yes." Yes, it will take me somewhere. Yes, I will choose the right path because I have the ability to differentiate. Yes, what I do will make my wish come true. But all this takes action, it takes courage, it takes discipline. I can't be who I am now if I want to see any change. I can't be laid back and have things come to me. I am the one who has to work hard to reach my goal. I am the only one who can make my wish come true.

But for now, I believe I can say that I am satisfied and happy with who I am. Have a Happy April Fools Day.

-s00z3n <3 :)