4 MORE DAYS!

I can't believe it; Winter Quarter is nearly over! I don't know whether to be glad or sad! I must admit though; out of all the winter breaks I have lived, this one is probably the 3rd best. The best ones were my 5th and 6th grade ones where my family and I went to Vegas. After so many years, winter break was mean to me: getting bad grades before Christmas where my parents threatened to kill me and all those fun stuff. This year, they were more lenient, saying that I now "understand" so whatever I do, I know what's best for me. etc. etc. So yeah, I actually enjoyed winter break this year and can't wait to go back to Irvine. (And another reason why I need to really head back to Irvine is because they've been shipping my packages I bought and leaving it on the front door steps, which isn't good cause people might, MIGHT, steal or they will get rained on which proabaly happened alread. Boo.) So yeah. Really want to head back to Irvine to get my stuff and back to friends. I totally miss them! Yet, inside, I don't want it to start cause I mean, I HAVE WRITING 39C! I'M GOING TO DIE! look. at. my. sentences. LOOK AT MY SENTENCES! They don't even really make sense. So many run-ons and fragments. Boo. Very bad subject-verb agreement. I will definitely die in that class. GOD! On the other hand, I'm quite excited for certain classes... wait, I'm excited for none of my classes cause they're all hard in my opinion. From 1 to 10, 1 being the least exciting, Writing-1, Sociology-5, Management-7, Social Science-6. I don't know; there are like no classes I'm really excited about. bleh. I also need to search for books. Why are they so expensive? T_T I don't have the money to spend.

Anywho, I can't believe that the year is almost over. I swear, this year went by FAST! Really fast. I didn't feel like I experienced "The Year 2010." I hope 2011 slows down a bit or maybe speed up so I can die in the year 2012 already. That would be lovely.

Going to the dentist again today. I went to the dentist two days ago because the gum next to my wisdom tooth was this huge bubble and it was killing me. I thought I would never be able to eat again, but yay, I can eat now. Speaking of eating, I really need to run. It's RAINING AGAIN! Whee! so I can't run cause yeah...

Well, still excited to go back to Irvine. I don't want to work anymore...

-s00z3n <3 :)

TANGLED!

Today, I went to watch Disney's Tangled. I really liked it. Rapunzel is my new favorite princess. She's so cute, and so is the guy voiced by Zach Levi. S2 Pascal is the cutest, in my opinion. Afterwards, my cousin and I went to CPK. We ordered Portobello Mushroom Ravioli and BBQ pizza. Both were good but I didn't really like it cause the outside of the ravioli was hot while inside were cold, which made me assume they didn't cook it well enough though the flavor was fine. Went back home and took a nap. Not much else happened. Might run tonight.

-s00z3n <3 :)

P.S. Felt kind of bad today cause I was slightly moody since my wisdom tooth is growing out and it hurts like a mother!

Happy Day :)

Well, first of all Merry Christmas. Today was a pretty nice day. Around 12, my family went to Marie Calendar and it was pretty good but crazy expensive. My parents, grandparents, aunt/uncle, cousins, and more relatives were all there to celebrate. For the meal, we had soup/salad appetizer, than our choice of main course, and finally desset, which is pie of course. I got the turkey while my cousin got the Mahi Mahi (Like 60% of the family got Mahi Mahi. I thought it was okay. I prefer salmon. :p ). And we ended it with PIE! I got pumpkin ;9






I love spending the holidays with my family. After eating, we played charades. It was crazy hilarious. Best ones, in my opinion, were my dad and my great-grandpa. Hilarity, I tell you.

Went to my cousin's place to hang out for a while. Aunt gave me cheesecake and sugar coated popcorn and chocolate, FERROR ROCHER!! Planned out that tomorrow we're going to watch a movie, TANGLED!, and going to chill out at CPK. Whee! ~

Yes, today indeed was a great day. The best part is that the day ended with it raining/pouring. :D

-s00z3n <3 :)

I love my cousin. :)

Merry Christmas Eve!

I don't know why but I am so happy right now. It's the day before Christmas and every year, I dread it because honestly, Christmas is not my favorite holiday. Typically, every Christmas, I get scolded by my dad for my abominable grades which eventually leads to a tense atmosphere of anger and sadness. Unfortunate events happen and happen again, constantly and constantly afterwards; it's just dreadful days, which is why I hate winter break, (Summer is much worse though.)

But now, I'm just happy, content actually. Even though, my house shows no signs of any holiday cheer: no lights, no tree, no presents, no milk and cookies, etc. etc., everything is perfectly alright. I'm happy right now, and I'm not even joking. I'm happy. I'm happy for some odd reason that I don't have presents to look forward to unwrapping the next day. I'm happy that my dad and I are actually on good terms right now, even with my lousy grades. I'm happy with my knitted hat. I'm happy, just plain happy. But honestly, inside, I know why I'm like really elated right now. It is because I have family. I have my dad and mom who I will wake up to tomorrow, and they're the best presents any child can have. I have my grandma and grandpa who I will see tomorrow, living healthily and smiling at me tomorrow where I will give them my brightest smile in return. I have my cousins who I have shared many memories with every Christmas and tomorrow will be another one. I have my aunt and uncle who has been so cordial and kind to me. I have relatives who are always so generous; every year, they invite us to fancy restaurants just so we can be together and share quality time. And, I have friends. I have friends who I know will be joyously spending their special time with their family, yet they will also think about their friends. This thought just touches me so much. It's these holidays that bring the family, relatives, and friends closest. Without these holidays, we just accept, accept, accept, when instead, we should actually appreciate.

So starting from now, (god!, am i just waking up? I have been such a shallow person.)I will learn to like Christmas. I won't think of it as a holiday of presents (though I didn't get more than 3 this year), but rather, it is a special time for people to really appreciate each other. Obviously, we should be doing that everyday/time, but these holidays will be the extra reminders that will tweak our brains a bit. Honestly who cares about presents when we have the greatest presents of all. And also, I'm sure that you're a great present as well. As for me, I believe that I'm a present that is a wrap-in-progress. I just need to find some ribbons and a bow, and maybe, after through all that messy wrapping, I will still be accepted or more, appreciated.

So even though I'm not the person who typically says it with much thought, this time I will:
"Merry Christmas [Eve] Everyone"

-s00z3n :) <3

Fortune Cookies

Fortune Cookie #1: You are going to have a very comfortable life.

Hooray! Might as well drop out of college now, cause no matter what, the cookie says I will have a "very comfortable life." MUHAHAHAHA!! I'm just kidding...

Fortune Cookie #2: Courage and optimism are your best traits.

Haha yeah right. I'm a born scaredy-cat. And, if you ask me if the glass is half full or half empty, I'm the one that'll say the glass is totally drained.

Oh look, I'm not dead yet.

So yesterday night, I decided to show my dad my grades. I don't think he was furious but he was very unhappy still. I personally and obviously felt really bad. I could have done so much better but I didn't. He and I knew I had the capability to do much better. Oh well, like always, there is next quarter...

2 more days til Christmas.

-s00z3n <3 :)

p.s. i think gift cards are almost the best present ever.

I am in love... again

He's just so perfect. sigh&drool

Do Not Disturb

Finally I can now settle down with a good book. I thought I'd be book-deprived this winter break but nope, I just remembered that I can check out book from library. CalTech's Fairview library is just so beautiful. Well, not the 1st and 2nd floor, but the 3rd floor was just breath-taking. I'm not even kidding. Well, I checked out Water for Elephants and The Kite Runner. I"M SO EXCITED TO READ!!



Wearing a hat/beret/beanie my mom knitted for me <3, eating an apple, and reading Water for Elephants. <3
This is the life.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Let's do what we can't do

It has been raining 5 days straight, from Friday all the way to Tuesday, today. I really wish it won't ever stop because words can't express how much I love the rain. I even plan to move to Washington in the future just because I hear that it rains there everyday. I secretly hope that it's true.

Well, aside from that, tomorrow is the day that I plan to confess my grades to my dad. I don't' think that he'll want to disown me but I know that he won't be too happy about it either. I really wish, like realllllly wish, that I gotten two more points in something for my Econ 13 class. Just two points away from a solid A! So close yet my heart breaks every time I think about it. Instead of having that 3.75 GPA I wanted I got the 3.6675. I can't believe 2 pts can cause such a thing. It irritates me so much. Well, at least I'm still on the Deans Honor List. :/

I don't know if I am able to embrace Winter Quarter with open arms. I'm definitely scared about writing, esp. that it is 39C. Research. T_T I'm only excited for MWF classes cause my friend Jenny and I shared that identical schedule. We'll be hanging out a lot ;). Also, I think I should watch my diet this quarter aka no food binging on chips, junk food, candy, etc, when I'm stressing, bored, or probably PMS-ing. I also need to run. *sigh sigh sigh* I've been eating nonstop since I got back home. I really need to learn how to cook. I'm glad that mom is going to teach me how to make curry. She makes them so bomb-ass, not even kidding. ugh. I always get so easily hungry now. boo.

Okay, to lighten up my already depressed mood, I'll talk about some Korean Dramas that I have been watching lately:
1) Mary Stayed Out All Night: I was kind of excited since there were so much hype about it, and sure, it was pretty interesting in the beginning. And of course, Jang Geun Suk is in it. What's there to not love? Well, as the drama went on, it was slightly getting boring cause it was moving slow. Like, things kept happening repeatedly, i.e. the company wanted to hire him but he said no, and that happened like 3 times, when we all know that he's going to get hired anyway. So yeah, I stopped watching probably on episode 4? 5? Oh well, I just know that I will continue to watch it when I'm done with the rest of the dramas I started.

2) Secret Garden: Oh. Em. Gee. I am totally addicted to this one. Totally filled with laughter and so much romance that girls can't possibly ask for more. Hyun Bin is the BEST! THE BEST! I'm totally not even joking. He is such a great actor and when he played as a girl (cause they switched bodies), it was totally plausible. He CAN act like a girl for sure. And for the main actress, I love her as well. This drama is seriously one of my favorites. It'll probably be one that I'm going to re-watch in the future. Now, I'm just waiting for Episode 11 cause I finished watching all the episode they had in two days. God, this drama is seriously love. (p.s. i'll admit that the first two episode might take awhile but it's well worth the wait)

3) Love Buffet: A taiwanese episode based off a japanese manga. I was first intrigued cause I was in a manga phase (hana yori dango, hana kimi, etc.) so I decided to give this a try. Umm, I didn't really like the acting. That's all I can say, so you can probably guess that I stopped watching, which is what I did... Couldn't even finish the first episode. :/ Guys weren't even my type of cute :

4) Flames of Ambition: So this korean drama is about a "conglomerate" family which is pretty screwed up. I believe that I watched 5 episodes already mainly cause I really liked the child's acting. I tried to explain what was happening in this drama to my friend yesterday and it was confusing cause everything was so family tied up, in other words, there was probably some incest. I might continue to watch cause I'm a person that likes watching a main character climb up the social ladder and manipulates people. It gets me to think how such ways are possible. Insteresting, I say, very interesting.

5) Queen of Reversal: Now I'm watching this and it's mainly for the actress. I. LOVE. HER. from the very beginning of Queen of Housewives. (The two dramas have nothing to do with each other) The actress, Kim Nam Joo, is so cute for her age. I really like her acting though some people might find it annoying. It's probably because she does a lot of brown-nosing, but those are the kind of actions I like learning from ;P Well, so far the drama itself isn't quite bad. People might say it's boring, but I'm really biased here. I like it a lot for some reason, but it's probably a drama I won't recommend. Just a drama for personal enjoyment. Yeah, I'm weird. :((

Well, I guess I'm done rambling on Korean Drama for now. I really can't wait for SECRET GARDEN EP. 11!!!!! GAH! I LOVE HYUN BIN!!! >< So cute. So yeah, I think I might blog a bit more such cause Winter Break is being boring to me. haha. ciao.

- s00z3n <3 :)

Mixed Feelings

I dislike moments when I don't know whether I should be feeling elated or depressed. It's raining right now, my most favorite weather. I loved the rain ever since I was little. When it rained, I was always ecstatic and something inside of me always wanted to burst with laughter. Instead, I only got giddy and continued with my task. Now, I feel so dead. I don't want to smile. I don't want to do anything but stare into space.

I am dead because my grades are out. Two A's, One A-, and One B. That one A- was so close to an A. It was 0.2% away from an A. I am devestated. Just totally devastated. I knew I could have done better. guess that's all i'm going to say for now.

WINTER BREAK

I really wanted to blog yesterday but I didn't have internet. Fortunately, I got it fixed today with the help from a very intelligent tech geek. Hooray!

I can’t believe that fall quarter went too fast. At times it was slow, actually not really. I think it went by too fast. I liked my stats class (Econ 15A). Even though the teacher was slightly annoying, he taught quite well. I learned a lot from him about statistics, not so much about probability. I’m still a probability retard. Hopefully, on the final, I get more than 10 questions correct because if I don’t, I’m going to be seeing a B on my report card, and I WILL kill myself. I can’t believe that all my grades depend on my final: this stats class, my global economy class, bio, not really Econ 100A. I know for a fact that even if I get a 100 on my final, I’m still going to get a B. But with bio and Econ 13, it really depends on how well I did on my final. I hope I did well. If I didn’t, instead of seeing clouds and bright lights, I’ll be seeing fire, rocks, little red guys with wings, etc. That’ll definitely be a blast… not.

I’m still so tired. My last final was Friday at NIGHT at 7-9 PM. That was like the last day with the last final, so I had to treat myself. I went to Starbucks and treated myself and Jenny to some of their delicious pastries. Yum, good stuff. It was buy one get one free, but I got two free so YES! Hehe. On the way back home, I discovered that I am growing my wisdom teeth, but right now it’s just tooth. It doesn’t hurt oddly but I’m not complaining.

Back home is such a bore. I’m glad I didn’t get into any big fights yet with my parents. I did get chastised by my dad a couple of times now, but I try to take it lightly and let it brush off. *sigh* I DON”T WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK! I’m glad that this break is 3 weeks long and not like summer which was like what, A MILLION YEARS?! So yeah, maybe I can get through this break without any troubles. Oh wait, that’s not going to happen because my dad is going to see my B and I’ll get murdered. Oh well, winter quarter, come sooner please.

-s00z3n <3 :)

I Have To Say

I think I'm quite happy today. Actually, not really. Well, this week is finals week and of course it means studying and reviewing the notes the professors went over in class. However, for me, it means that I had to re-teach myself everything otherwise I definitely would have failed. I'm glad that I really did understand cause I managed to get 4 of the 6 problems done. Not sure if I had them all correct but I do know that without my self-teaching, I might as well have not gone to the final at all. There were two problems that were quite difficult. I really hope for a HUGE curve and somehow, I might manage to scrape an A- but I might as well just knock myself out with a pan cause that would have a higher chance of happening than me getting that A-. Oh well, I'll be looking for another sleepless night while I review for my Stats finals. Seriously, I'm so happy cause I can just do 10 out of 18 problems correctly, and I'll still get that solid A. However, I've been practicing on some practice tests, and sadly, I could answer only like two max. *sigh* Why is it that my brain is a leaky faucet? I need it to be fixed now. But that's not going to happen especially when I only had one hour of sleep the night before.

-s00z3n <3 :)

HAVING NO WIFI SUCKS!

So it's been a week already and my friend and I have been dying since there is no internet. Whenever Natasha and I want to go on the internet, we have to wait for our other apt-mates to use their computers. They are able to get internet access through the internet cables, but when Natasha and I use ours, we can't cause we don't have this "anti-virus" thing installed, apparently. Also, the wireless router died here, so we're waiting for the one that Ana ordered. Can't wait until it come and WORKS!

Well yesterday, tennis club had the Secret Santa Kickback where we exchange gifts. I feel so bad cause the gift for my person didn't come in time... and it's still not here yet. -_- I hope it comes during finals week cause I really want to give it to her. Well, it was a fun night. Never stayed out that late before. I'm always home before 10. I wasn't back until 12:30 at night and thank god Colleen let me borrowed her bike, cause I got back to CV [from ARC/Camino del Sol] in 10 minutes. So anyways, it was a fun night. I was the 22nd person to go so I waited for everyone opening their presents. Even though I'm not a big fan of Christmas and the holidays and such, I am a big fan of seeing people opening their presents. One, it's cause they don't know what they're going to get so when you see their faces, they have an expression of excitement and anticipation and hope. It's just a really nice feeling. Also, when they do see their presents, their faces light up and it is just great when they have this huge smile plastered on their face and laughing with joy. The feeling is just so unforgettable and so memorable. Anywho, I'm really REALLY happy with my gift. Cause why? CAUSE I GOT A STITCH MUG!! S2 S2 S2 LOVE LOVE LOVE!! and I got chocolates :)

Well, it's finals week. So much studying to do. Everything is so hard core so I better get my game on. My friend and I are going to study our butts off at the library tomorrow. haven't been there since last year :x

-s00z3n <3 :)

Smile//Uncle Kracker