Merry Christmas Eve!

I don't know why but I am so happy right now. It's the day before Christmas and every year, I dread it because honestly, Christmas is not my favorite holiday. Typically, every Christmas, I get scolded by my dad for my abominable grades which eventually leads to a tense atmosphere of anger and sadness. Unfortunate events happen and happen again, constantly and constantly afterwards; it's just dreadful days, which is why I hate winter break, (Summer is much worse though.)

But now, I'm just happy, content actually. Even though, my house shows no signs of any holiday cheer: no lights, no tree, no presents, no milk and cookies, etc. etc., everything is perfectly alright. I'm happy right now, and I'm not even joking. I'm happy. I'm happy for some odd reason that I don't have presents to look forward to unwrapping the next day. I'm happy that my dad and I are actually on good terms right now, even with my lousy grades. I'm happy with my knitted hat. I'm happy, just plain happy. But honestly, inside, I know why I'm like really elated right now. It is because I have family. I have my dad and mom who I will wake up to tomorrow, and they're the best presents any child can have. I have my grandma and grandpa who I will see tomorrow, living healthily and smiling at me tomorrow where I will give them my brightest smile in return. I have my cousins who I have shared many memories with every Christmas and tomorrow will be another one. I have my aunt and uncle who has been so cordial and kind to me. I have relatives who are always so generous; every year, they invite us to fancy restaurants just so we can be together and share quality time. And, I have friends. I have friends who I know will be joyously spending their special time with their family, yet they will also think about their friends. This thought just touches me so much. It's these holidays that bring the family, relatives, and friends closest. Without these holidays, we just accept, accept, accept, when instead, we should actually appreciate.

So starting from now, (god!, am i just waking up? I have been such a shallow person.)I will learn to like Christmas. I won't think of it as a holiday of presents (though I didn't get more than 3 this year), but rather, it is a special time for people to really appreciate each other. Obviously, we should be doing that everyday/time, but these holidays will be the extra reminders that will tweak our brains a bit. Honestly who cares about presents when we have the greatest presents of all. And also, I'm sure that you're a great present as well. As for me, I believe that I'm a present that is a wrap-in-progress. I just need to find some ribbons and a bow, and maybe, after through all that messy wrapping, I will still be accepted or more, appreciated.

So even though I'm not the person who typically says it with much thought, this time I will:
"Merry Christmas [Eve] Everyone"

-s00z3n :) <3