until I return to Irvine!! <3
Today was another (un)believable boring day. I watched KDramas all day long. Watched "Triple" and when that broke down, I watched "Who Are You?" Yeah, I need a life. I have to stop thinking about how my life is going to be like a korean drama. It's not going to work Susan! But yeah, a girl can dream, can't she?
I think I'll write my New Year's Resolution Tomorrow.
-s00z3n <3 :)
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Stuffed
My weight is constantly increasing and never seems to stop. It's probably because of the many delicious yet fatty food I consumed. But I swear, it's not my fault! If you present it in front of me, I'm bound to eat it. And this winter break, there were unlimited amount of food served in front of me. On Christmas, I had two pretty large meals. The next day, we got treated by a friend to Hometown Buffet which needless to say is another food binging moment for me. And today, we're going to have another family dinner. It. Never. Stops! I feel like I should fast throughout the week cause I know that Friday, there is going to be another feast for the NEW YEAR OF 2010! and Jan. 2, it's going to be another family dinner. Seriously, if this continues, I think I'm bound to have a body equivalent of a sumo wrestler.
Still can't wait for Irvine. One more week! X)
-s00z3n <3 :)
Still can't wait for Irvine. One more week! X)
-s00z3n <3 :)
Friday, December 25, 2009
Christmas Day
Today is Christmas! and I want to thank all the people who gave me presents. I'm going to list the gifts and who gave them!:
- Vans: Heather
- $$$: Aunt GuGu
- Digital Camera: Aunt Monica
- $$$: Grandma/pa (Mom's side)
- $$$: Uncle James
- $$$: Grandma/pa (Dad's side)
- $$$: Aunt Pei/Uncle Luke
- Jamba Juice Gift Card: Aunt Wilma
- Watch [gave it to mum]: Great Aunt&Uncle
- Borders Gift Card/Ferro Rocher: Prof Yung
- Mini Light (Dad's Gift)
This is like the first year that I did not receive clothes. Just when I actually want it, I don't get it. In the past, I always find that getting clothes was annoying and thought that getting new toys and gadgets were loads better, but dang it, I want clothes now. It's mainly because my clothes are so ..uhh... redundant. I wear the same clothes over and over that I bet somebody is able to memorize my wardrobe. Anywho, I wish I at least got a giftcard to a clothing store. Hmm...
Well, today's excitement basically started at lunch where I went to my great-aunt's house. We all ate a decent Christmas meal together and later played with Eddie, DDR, and Guitar Hero. I failed... many times. At night, I left with my dad and Andrew to go to our boss's party. Not a lot of people showed up compared to previous years but I seriously love their food. I especially favor their yam covered marshmellows. MMmmm... There were many awkward silences during the dinner table but at least I wasn't much of the center of attention. So yeah, I was pretty thankful when it was time to go home. Well, Christmas was pretty merry. I still can't wait to get back to Irvine.
-s00z3n <3 :)
- Vans: Heather
- $$$: Aunt GuGu
- Digital Camera: Aunt Monica
- $$$: Grandma/pa (Mom's side)
- $$$: Uncle James
- $$$: Grandma/pa (Dad's side)
- $$$: Aunt Pei/Uncle Luke
- Jamba Juice Gift Card: Aunt Wilma
- Watch [gave it to mum]: Great Aunt&Uncle
- Borders Gift Card/Ferro Rocher: Prof Yung
- Mini Light (Dad's Gift)
This is like the first year that I did not receive clothes. Just when I actually want it, I don't get it. In the past, I always find that getting clothes was annoying and thought that getting new toys and gadgets were loads better, but dang it, I want clothes now. It's mainly because my clothes are so ..uhh... redundant. I wear the same clothes over and over that I bet somebody is able to memorize my wardrobe. Anywho, I wish I at least got a giftcard to a clothing store. Hmm...
Well, today's excitement basically started at lunch where I went to my great-aunt's house. We all ate a decent Christmas meal together and later played with Eddie, DDR, and Guitar Hero. I failed... many times. At night, I left with my dad and Andrew to go to our boss's party. Not a lot of people showed up compared to previous years but I seriously love their food. I especially favor their yam covered marshmellows. MMmmm... There were many awkward silences during the dinner table but at least I wasn't much of the center of attention. So yeah, I was pretty thankful when it was time to go home. Well, Christmas was pretty merry. I still can't wait to get back to Irvine.
-s00z3n <3 :)
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Merry Chirstmas! ... in like 5 min.
Even though it's just five minutes until Christmas, I have to say that this year, it does not feel like I'm experiencing Christmas at all. No presents for me to open... cause I opened them already. :X No Christmas tree, not even the fake one we have in the closet cause mum and me are too lazy to set it up. It just feels like any other regular day. But I'm still going to celebrate it tomorrow. I'll be at my great aunts for lunch and then boss's for dinner.
okay it's 12 so MERRY CHRISTMAS! and Happy Birthday Jesus. Peace.
-s00z3n <3 :)
p.s. The best present so far, I think I mentioned already, is my new camera!!
okay it's 12 so MERRY CHRISTMAS! and Happy Birthday Jesus. Peace.
-s00z3n <3 :)
p.s. The best present so far, I think I mentioned already, is my new camera!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Dead Tired
Today was a pretty fun day. I hung out with my tennis group friends I use to take group lessons with. Marsha, Brandon, Edward, and Johnny. We first went to get lunch after picking me up from Caltech. We went to Sinbala, but there was a long wait so we decided to go to Life Plaza to kill time. They spent $5 on those machining claw grabbing game. I swear that it's rigged. Order a chicken thingy at Sinbala; it was alright. We then went to bowling and it was fun. I fail at bowling; I only got a score of 30-something. Brandon's throw is pretty epic. The ball seems like it's about to go to the gutter, but instead it spins to the middle and STRIKE! Edward is funnier cause he did grandma style on a really heavy ball and got a strike as well. lol. Brandon, Edward, and I were a team against Johnny and Marsha and it was no competition. UC R BOMB definitely won against the KIDDIES. haha Later we did a quick run to TenRen's and then went to rent a movie: American Pie Presents: The Book of Love. Oh Em Gee. I think it's a good thing I prepared myself from college. So Much Effing Nudity. Had to close my eyes like a bajillion times. It was quite a disturbing movie (obviously in the sexual way, not like a horror movie way.) The plot was cute though and it was pretty funny. Well, went home at 6 and yeah, pretty nice day.
Now, I'm going to run...but I'm realllllly tired. Ah well. Toodles.
-s00z3n <3 :)
Now, I'm going to run...but I'm realllllly tired. Ah well. Toodles.
-s00z3n <3 :)
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Family Gathering
Today was a typical day I stayed in home watching Korean dramas. I finally finished a drama that I always wanted to watch called My Name is Kim Sam Soon. (Another title for it is called My Lovely Kim Sam Soon.) I really liked it cause okay, I admit, it was cause this character wasn't the typical skinny anorexic main character. She was chubby and not too bright and yeah, it gives me hope that I, myself, am able to find love someday. I personally know that I'm not the skinniest girl nor am I curvy. Dang it, I'm buff and filled with cellulite and on myspace, I am considered "more to love." So yeah, I'm not the most attractive person, pretty much like the main character Sam Soon, but if she's able to find love, then I am as well. Trouble is that she found love at the age of 30. Hope I can find it earlier than that. lol I'm also re-watching Iljimae, my favorite historical Korean drama and I forgot how much I reallllly love that movie. *sigh* Lee Jun Ki... *sigh*
At night, I went to a family dinner on my mom's side. As much as I love my family, I have to say that I sometimes find them really annoying. My grandparents are alright; the only trouble I have with them is understanding their mandarin dialect because they're from the countryside, so they have this really odd accent. My uncle is alright too, and so it my one aunt. My other aunt...oh god, I wish I can be like her when I grow up. She is so chic; her dressing style is so in fashion that I'm like, "Dang girl, switch life with me so you can be in the current century to show off the trendy clothes you have on." She is also the best cause for Christmas, she bought me a new camera, which she gave me today. <3 Okay, so mainly, the people left off are... my cousins. They annoy the heck out of me sometimes. The older of the four is my dear cousin Stephanie. Yes, she is smart. Yes, she is tall. NO! SHE IS EFFING ANNOYING DUE TO THE FACT THAT SHE IS SOOOO IMMATURE. I really hate how she misleads my baby cousins. She tells them to blow raspberries. She tells them to fight with each other indirectly. She is just UGH!! just the worst role model for any baby/child(ren) and should never be followed. Also, she is very spoiled; if she doesn't get any attention, she does something horrible to get attention. I hate how she wants us to think that she's the most perfect angel in the world but in reality, she's just a spoiled annoying brat. I don't care how tall or smart she is; she seriously need help with her maturity cause right now, it seems she has zero per cent of it. (She's in middle school, btw.) The next one, Issac, is okay. I actually feel sorry for him. He has a little brother Ryan who always gets the attention but I'll talk about him later. Issac was spoiled before but now he's getting better. I feel sorry for him mainly because he doesn't get the attention he needs. He wants to be talked about but ever since his brother came, my grandparents, aunts, are busy cuddling little Ryan. Isaac isn't able to get what he wants anymore and I can tell that he's not that use to it. I like him but due to the fact that Stephanie always tells him to bother me, I get a little annoyed. Lastly, the two babies... oh wait, more like toddlers in the family are Hanson and Ryan. (Stephanie is the daughter of the okay aunt; Hanson is the son of the trendy aunt; and Issac and Ryan are the sons of my uncle.) Hanson and Ryan are definitely cute but, Oh Em Gee, can they NOT ask for soda, boba, dessert all the time. I realize that they're babies but it's annoying to see that when one gets something, the other has to have it as well. It's not just them but ohmygod, again with Stephanie being a fricking brat. She's the one like can I have boba, very well knowing that it's going to make Hanson and Ryan want it as well. And what's annoying is that she's always saying she's on a diet. (Hehe, good thing she's not skinny or I'd kill someone.) Honey, you can can't have boba when you're on a diet. It's just not going to work. but it's definitely going to work if your plan is to stir up some baby commotion that tends to drive the whole restaurant insane. Yeah, I sometimes can't stand my cousins. No offense, but this is why I tend to prefer my dad's side of the family. More refined and way more mature. Oh, we went to this cafe place called LA Bistro. I like it there cause the foods not that bad. haha
After dinner, I played tennis until ten. I then drove home just like yesterday but only much better. Kind of felt happy that I didn't crash into a curb today. haha
-s00z3n <3 :)
At night, I went to a family dinner on my mom's side. As much as I love my family, I have to say that I sometimes find them really annoying. My grandparents are alright; the only trouble I have with them is understanding their mandarin dialect because they're from the countryside, so they have this really odd accent. My uncle is alright too, and so it my one aunt. My other aunt...oh god, I wish I can be like her when I grow up. She is so chic; her dressing style is so in fashion that I'm like, "Dang girl, switch life with me so you can be in the current century to show off the trendy clothes you have on." She is also the best cause for Christmas, she bought me a new camera, which she gave me today. <3 Okay, so mainly, the people left off are... my cousins. They annoy the heck out of me sometimes. The older of the four is my dear cousin Stephanie. Yes, she is smart. Yes, she is tall. NO! SHE IS EFFING ANNOYING DUE TO THE FACT THAT SHE IS SOOOO IMMATURE. I really hate how she misleads my baby cousins. She tells them to blow raspberries. She tells them to fight with each other indirectly. She is just UGH!! just the worst role model for any baby/child(ren) and should never be followed. Also, she is very spoiled; if she doesn't get any attention, she does something horrible to get attention. I hate how she wants us to think that she's the most perfect angel in the world but in reality, she's just a spoiled annoying brat. I don't care how tall or smart she is; she seriously need help with her maturity cause right now, it seems she has zero per cent of it. (She's in middle school, btw.) The next one, Issac, is okay. I actually feel sorry for him. He has a little brother Ryan who always gets the attention but I'll talk about him later. Issac was spoiled before but now he's getting better. I feel sorry for him mainly because he doesn't get the attention he needs. He wants to be talked about but ever since his brother came, my grandparents, aunts, are busy cuddling little Ryan. Isaac isn't able to get what he wants anymore and I can tell that he's not that use to it. I like him but due to the fact that Stephanie always tells him to bother me, I get a little annoyed. Lastly, the two babies... oh wait, more like toddlers in the family are Hanson and Ryan. (Stephanie is the daughter of the okay aunt; Hanson is the son of the trendy aunt; and Issac and Ryan are the sons of my uncle.) Hanson and Ryan are definitely cute but, Oh Em Gee, can they NOT ask for soda, boba, dessert all the time. I realize that they're babies but it's annoying to see that when one gets something, the other has to have it as well. It's not just them but ohmygod, again with Stephanie being a fricking brat. She's the one like can I have boba, very well knowing that it's going to make Hanson and Ryan want it as well. And what's annoying is that she's always saying she's on a diet. (Hehe, good thing she's not skinny or I'd kill someone.) Honey, you can can't have boba when you're on a diet. It's just not going to work. but it's definitely going to work if your plan is to stir up some baby commotion that tends to drive the whole restaurant insane. Yeah, I sometimes can't stand my cousins. No offense, but this is why I tend to prefer my dad's side of the family. More refined and way more mature. Oh, we went to this cafe place called LA Bistro. I like it there cause the foods not that bad. haha
After dinner, I played tennis until ten. I then drove home just like yesterday but only much better. Kind of felt happy that I didn't crash into a curb today. haha
-s00z3n <3 :)
Sunday, December 20, 2009
You Drive Me Up The... Curb
Tonight, I went running with my dad, uncle and cousin. Dad and Uncle walked so my cousin (Andrew) and I went to jog. I jogged behind him cause I was slow and stopped when I felt my shin hurting. Walked around the field and did some stretches...that burned like crazy. Cause Andrew was there. He pushed me harder than I do to myself, so yeah...painful. My thighs burned... at the time. They're okay now.
So, I drove the very first time again today after a long hiatus of not driving. I surprised myself that I did better than before. Evidently, my father thought so too thus he let me drive on the streets the very first time I'm with him. (We usually drive around the student parking lot of TCHS.) He drove to Golden West and I took the wheels from then on. My driving was okay. A bit slow, I admit. Halfway home, my dad noticed a tailgater so he told me to park by the sideway. Sadly, I drove up the curb and yeah, I'm a fail Asian driver. When the car got back down, you could here the loud rubber noise scratching the curb. Whoops. So yeah. I also nearly drove into two women. Hey, not my fault they were standing in the middle of the road, but I admit, I could have honked. And lastly, when I was about to reach home, I saw a dead gray striped cat in the middle of the road. It was a depressing sight, but thank GOD, I made it back safely. I never knew I could do it, so yeah I am pretty proud of myself. Yay me.
-s00z3n <3 :)
(^-- That's my new little signature you'll be seeing after every post I make.)
So, I drove the very first time again today after a long hiatus of not driving. I surprised myself that I did better than before. Evidently, my father thought so too thus he let me drive on the streets the very first time I'm with him. (We usually drive around the student parking lot of TCHS.) He drove to Golden West and I took the wheels from then on. My driving was okay. A bit slow, I admit. Halfway home, my dad noticed a tailgater so he told me to park by the sideway. Sadly, I drove up the curb and yeah, I'm a fail Asian driver. When the car got back down, you could here the loud rubber noise scratching the curb. Whoops. So yeah. I also nearly drove into two women. Hey, not my fault they were standing in the middle of the road, but I admit, I could have honked. And lastly, when I was about to reach home, I saw a dead gray striped cat in the middle of the road. It was a depressing sight, but thank GOD, I made it back safely. I never knew I could do it, so yeah I am pretty proud of myself. Yay me.
-s00z3n <3 :)
(^-- That's my new little signature you'll be seeing after every post I make.)
Driving
Well, I guess I am going to be posting here more than I thought. Accomplishment? I ask. Hmmm maybe.
In my other blogs, i.e. Wordpress and Livejournal, I have written about my driving skills. Oh wait, I can't say it's skills. It's more like my driving failures. Yeah. I can't drive. I can't turn, change lanes, and I never check the mirrors. I'm a complete stereotypical Asian driver (nooffenseAsianpeople!^^;). Not only can I not really drive well, but I'm scared of driving too. I hate the fact that my dad constantly tells me that the car is the number one "killing machine" ever since I was little (about age 8), thus I depend on him and mom to take my anywhere. But now that I'm 18, almost 19, I need to get an ID and well something about insurance too. But seriously, I'm scared to drive cause every time I get in the driver's seat, I feel and think I am going to crash. I just wish that I can pass and get my license the first time I take the test.
Didn't post yesterday because I was customizing this blog. I really like it because it's the first blog that I was able to put music in. Wordpress doesn't allow music which is a bummer. I could never do it on my Xanga. Never really tried it on Livejournal. But this, I was successful. I like listening to songs when I read, so yeah. I chose a song from my favorite Korean Drama, Iljimae. (My favorite Korean actor, Lee Jun Ki, starred the main role!) The song, I admit, is a bit sad. I mainly chose it because I thought it sounded nice and yeah, not a big BANG!BOOM!POW! to scare the readers when it comes on. I orginally wanted to have Shake it by Metro Station but one of my friends already had it so I didn't feel like picking it. haha.
In my other blogs, i.e. Wordpress and Livejournal, I have written about my driving skills. Oh wait, I can't say it's skills. It's more like my driving failures. Yeah. I can't drive. I can't turn, change lanes, and I never check the mirrors. I'm a complete stereotypical Asian driver (nooffenseAsianpeople!^^;). Not only can I not really drive well, but I'm scared of driving too. I hate the fact that my dad constantly tells me that the car is the number one "killing machine" ever since I was little (about age 8), thus I depend on him and mom to take my anywhere. But now that I'm 18, almost 19, I need to get an ID and well something about insurance too. But seriously, I'm scared to drive cause every time I get in the driver's seat, I feel and think I am going to crash. I just wish that I can pass and get my license the first time I take the test.
Didn't post yesterday because I was customizing this blog. I really like it because it's the first blog that I was able to put music in. Wordpress doesn't allow music which is a bummer. I could never do it on my Xanga. Never really tried it on Livejournal. But this, I was successful. I like listening to songs when I read, so yeah. I chose a song from my favorite Korean Drama, Iljimae. (My favorite Korean actor, Lee Jun Ki, starred the main role!) The song, I admit, is a bit sad. I mainly chose it because I thought it sounded nice and yeah, not a big BANG!BOOM!POW! to scare the readers when it comes on. I orginally wanted to have Shake it by Metro Station but one of my friends already had it so I didn't feel like picking it. haha.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Drowning My Sorrows
Depressing news for me and always me. I am a seriously cursed person. Why I sound so sad is because I just found out my first quarter college grades last night. I couldn't even sleep that night. It leads me to wonder why do I have to be asian? Why do I have parents who think that the only way to survive in the world is to get straight A's in college? If you get anything lower, you'll become a scumbag. Then it lead me to think Why didn't I work harder, study harder? Why did I have to take advantage of the freedom I got. I ask these questions yet I already know the answers. I'm Asian because God made me. I have these kind of parents because God made it that way and seriously, they just want me to have a good life, thus the strictness. And lastly, I seriously take too much advantage of the free time I had at Irvine. But I'm going to change that. Not the former two, but the latter. This upcoming quarter, I'm going to study hard. I'm not going to waste my time. I'm going to use my time wisely and stop meddling with unimportant stuff. The grades that I got this quarter is just a small step. Yes, this small step is a great impact towards my life but I'm the one who can make that negative step into a correct one. Whatever. I'm still in distress. This 2.8 gpa will not look great, so I'm going to have to work hard to redeem my GPA.
Now, I can't do anything about it though. Still sad thus the reason I'm drowning my sorrows in some good Korean dramas. Oh dear, what am I going to tell my parents? That's a question that I can't answer... yet.
Now, I can't do anything about it though. Still sad thus the reason I'm drowning my sorrows in some good Korean dramas. Oh dear, what am I going to tell my parents? That's a question that I can't answer... yet.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Quite Irritating
I find it annoying when I want to post about something but suddenly I forget it, and then I have nothing to post about... like now. I forgot what I was going to say so I guess I'll just ramble a bit of what comes to my mind.
All day, I haven't really been working. My boss told me to download some stuff, but the tedious work just makes me want to nod off to sleep. I went to the Caltech Library today and checked out some books. Some three hours ago, I was reading Wide Sargasso Sea, written by Jean Rhys. It's about Bertha from Jane Eyre and her side of the story. It's quite interesting I must say. I really hate the atmosphere I am in right now. I'm in a basement with a lot of whirring machines which makes my head extremely dizzy. Later at night, I'm going to be having a family dinner. I can't wait since I'm seriously starving.
Haha, wow. I was just reading what I just wrote and yikes, it's all ramblings of mine with no flow at all. That's what happens when my head hurts. Yeah, I'm really scared tomorrow cause that's when my grades come out from college. I feel really bad not getting a single A this quarter. I really tried but this whole new experience kind of made me stray off the road. I'll do better winter quarter, hopefully. I really want to change winter quarter. I want to really work hard and not just lounge around. I want to push myself to run 3 miles a day, at least. I don't want myself to eat a lot during meals, abusing my body. I want to change myself into someone that I can be proud of. Right now, I'm just in constant denial. I really wish to change that.
Ah well. Oh, and I like how I spent about an hour on the layout of this blog that I might not even be updating. Who knows? Maybe I'll update here constantly just to get things off of my mind.
All day, I haven't really been working. My boss told me to download some stuff, but the tedious work just makes me want to nod off to sleep. I went to the Caltech Library today and checked out some books. Some three hours ago, I was reading Wide Sargasso Sea, written by Jean Rhys. It's about Bertha from Jane Eyre and her side of the story. It's quite interesting I must say. I really hate the atmosphere I am in right now. I'm in a basement with a lot of whirring machines which makes my head extremely dizzy. Later at night, I'm going to be having a family dinner. I can't wait since I'm seriously starving.
Haha, wow. I was just reading what I just wrote and yikes, it's all ramblings of mine with no flow at all. That's what happens when my head hurts. Yeah, I'm really scared tomorrow cause that's when my grades come out from college. I feel really bad not getting a single A this quarter. I really tried but this whole new experience kind of made me stray off the road. I'll do better winter quarter, hopefully. I really want to change winter quarter. I want to really work hard and not just lounge around. I want to push myself to run 3 miles a day, at least. I don't want myself to eat a lot during meals, abusing my body. I want to change myself into someone that I can be proud of. Right now, I'm just in constant denial. I really wish to change that.
Ah well. Oh, and I like how I spent about an hour on the layout of this blog that I might not even be updating. Who knows? Maybe I'll update here constantly just to get things off of my mind.
I Laugh At Myself
I have so many blogs and here I am making a new one. I'm somewhat sad that wordpress isn't working for me right now cause that is my main blog. I don't really like posting much in my livejournal for some reason. (I think it's cause I get sidetracked whenever I'm on there.) Well, anyways, I know for a fact that this is probably going to be my first and last post... okay maybe not last post, but I know that I won't be coming here a lot cause I mean, I had another blogger and I only posted two posts on that one. So yeah, I just feel like typing right now because I'm really bored. I can't wait to go back to college. I know that my grades may not be great, but at least I find joy there. I have suitemates who I really adore hanging out with. I love my room because it's MY room and I have an awesome roommate. But right now, I'm just ugh. Life is really blah. I think I'm getting my grades tomorrow from Irvine and why do I get this feeling that I'm going to have straight B's? or possibly B-'s? if any worse C+'s? I hate receiving grades. Why can't we just learn and not worry about the grade part? Ah well, I'll type a bit more later.
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