4 MORE DAYS!

I can't believe it; Winter Quarter is nearly over! I don't know whether to be glad or sad! I must admit though; out of all the winter breaks I have lived, this one is probably the 3rd best. The best ones were my 5th and 6th grade ones where my family and I went to Vegas. After so many years, winter break was mean to me: getting bad grades before Christmas where my parents threatened to kill me and all those fun stuff. This year, they were more lenient, saying that I now "understand" so whatever I do, I know what's best for me. etc. etc. So yeah, I actually enjoyed winter break this year and can't wait to go back to Irvine. (And another reason why I need to really head back to Irvine is because they've been shipping my packages I bought and leaving it on the front door steps, which isn't good cause people might, MIGHT, steal or they will get rained on which proabaly happened alread. Boo.) So yeah. Really want to head back to Irvine to get my stuff and back to friends. I totally miss them! Yet, inside, I don't want it to start cause I mean, I HAVE WRITING 39C! I'M GOING TO DIE! look. at. my. sentences. LOOK AT MY SENTENCES! They don't even really make sense. So many run-ons and fragments. Boo. Very bad subject-verb agreement. I will definitely die in that class. GOD! On the other hand, I'm quite excited for certain classes... wait, I'm excited for none of my classes cause they're all hard in my opinion. From 1 to 10, 1 being the least exciting, Writing-1, Sociology-5, Management-7, Social Science-6. I don't know; there are like no classes I'm really excited about. bleh. I also need to search for books. Why are they so expensive? T_T I don't have the money to spend.

Anywho, I can't believe that the year is almost over. I swear, this year went by FAST! Really fast. I didn't feel like I experienced "The Year 2010." I hope 2011 slows down a bit or maybe speed up so I can die in the year 2012 already. That would be lovely.

Going to the dentist again today. I went to the dentist two days ago because the gum next to my wisdom tooth was this huge bubble and it was killing me. I thought I would never be able to eat again, but yay, I can eat now. Speaking of eating, I really need to run. It's RAINING AGAIN! Whee! so I can't run cause yeah...

Well, still excited to go back to Irvine. I don't want to work anymore...

-s00z3n <3 :)

TANGLED!

Today, I went to watch Disney's Tangled. I really liked it. Rapunzel is my new favorite princess. She's so cute, and so is the guy voiced by Zach Levi. S2 Pascal is the cutest, in my opinion. Afterwards, my cousin and I went to CPK. We ordered Portobello Mushroom Ravioli and BBQ pizza. Both were good but I didn't really like it cause the outside of the ravioli was hot while inside were cold, which made me assume they didn't cook it well enough though the flavor was fine. Went back home and took a nap. Not much else happened. Might run tonight.

-s00z3n <3 :)

P.S. Felt kind of bad today cause I was slightly moody since my wisdom tooth is growing out and it hurts like a mother!

Happy Day :)

Well, first of all Merry Christmas. Today was a pretty nice day. Around 12, my family went to Marie Calendar and it was pretty good but crazy expensive. My parents, grandparents, aunt/uncle, cousins, and more relatives were all there to celebrate. For the meal, we had soup/salad appetizer, than our choice of main course, and finally desset, which is pie of course. I got the turkey while my cousin got the Mahi Mahi (Like 60% of the family got Mahi Mahi. I thought it was okay. I prefer salmon. :p ). And we ended it with PIE! I got pumpkin ;9






I love spending the holidays with my family. After eating, we played charades. It was crazy hilarious. Best ones, in my opinion, were my dad and my great-grandpa. Hilarity, I tell you.

Went to my cousin's place to hang out for a while. Aunt gave me cheesecake and sugar coated popcorn and chocolate, FERROR ROCHER!! Planned out that tomorrow we're going to watch a movie, TANGLED!, and going to chill out at CPK. Whee! ~

Yes, today indeed was a great day. The best part is that the day ended with it raining/pouring. :D

-s00z3n <3 :)

I love my cousin. :)

Merry Christmas Eve!

I don't know why but I am so happy right now. It's the day before Christmas and every year, I dread it because honestly, Christmas is not my favorite holiday. Typically, every Christmas, I get scolded by my dad for my abominable grades which eventually leads to a tense atmosphere of anger and sadness. Unfortunate events happen and happen again, constantly and constantly afterwards; it's just dreadful days, which is why I hate winter break, (Summer is much worse though.)

But now, I'm just happy, content actually. Even though, my house shows no signs of any holiday cheer: no lights, no tree, no presents, no milk and cookies, etc. etc., everything is perfectly alright. I'm happy right now, and I'm not even joking. I'm happy. I'm happy for some odd reason that I don't have presents to look forward to unwrapping the next day. I'm happy that my dad and I are actually on good terms right now, even with my lousy grades. I'm happy with my knitted hat. I'm happy, just plain happy. But honestly, inside, I know why I'm like really elated right now. It is because I have family. I have my dad and mom who I will wake up to tomorrow, and they're the best presents any child can have. I have my grandma and grandpa who I will see tomorrow, living healthily and smiling at me tomorrow where I will give them my brightest smile in return. I have my cousins who I have shared many memories with every Christmas and tomorrow will be another one. I have my aunt and uncle who has been so cordial and kind to me. I have relatives who are always so generous; every year, they invite us to fancy restaurants just so we can be together and share quality time. And, I have friends. I have friends who I know will be joyously spending their special time with their family, yet they will also think about their friends. This thought just touches me so much. It's these holidays that bring the family, relatives, and friends closest. Without these holidays, we just accept, accept, accept, when instead, we should actually appreciate.

So starting from now, (god!, am i just waking up? I have been such a shallow person.)I will learn to like Christmas. I won't think of it as a holiday of presents (though I didn't get more than 3 this year), but rather, it is a special time for people to really appreciate each other. Obviously, we should be doing that everyday/time, but these holidays will be the extra reminders that will tweak our brains a bit. Honestly who cares about presents when we have the greatest presents of all. And also, I'm sure that you're a great present as well. As for me, I believe that I'm a present that is a wrap-in-progress. I just need to find some ribbons and a bow, and maybe, after through all that messy wrapping, I will still be accepted or more, appreciated.

So even though I'm not the person who typically says it with much thought, this time I will:
"Merry Christmas [Eve] Everyone"

-s00z3n :) <3

Fortune Cookies

Fortune Cookie #1: You are going to have a very comfortable life.

Hooray! Might as well drop out of college now, cause no matter what, the cookie says I will have a "very comfortable life." MUHAHAHAHA!! I'm just kidding...

Fortune Cookie #2: Courage and optimism are your best traits.

Haha yeah right. I'm a born scaredy-cat. And, if you ask me if the glass is half full or half empty, I'm the one that'll say the glass is totally drained.

Oh look, I'm not dead yet.

So yesterday night, I decided to show my dad my grades. I don't think he was furious but he was very unhappy still. I personally and obviously felt really bad. I could have done so much better but I didn't. He and I knew I had the capability to do much better. Oh well, like always, there is next quarter...

2 more days til Christmas.

-s00z3n <3 :)

p.s. i think gift cards are almost the best present ever.

I am in love... again

He's just so perfect. sigh&drool

Do Not Disturb

Finally I can now settle down with a good book. I thought I'd be book-deprived this winter break but nope, I just remembered that I can check out book from library. CalTech's Fairview library is just so beautiful. Well, not the 1st and 2nd floor, but the 3rd floor was just breath-taking. I'm not even kidding. Well, I checked out Water for Elephants and The Kite Runner. I"M SO EXCITED TO READ!!



Wearing a hat/beret/beanie my mom knitted for me <3, eating an apple, and reading Water for Elephants. <3
This is the life.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Let's do what we can't do

It has been raining 5 days straight, from Friday all the way to Tuesday, today. I really wish it won't ever stop because words can't express how much I love the rain. I even plan to move to Washington in the future just because I hear that it rains there everyday. I secretly hope that it's true.

Well, aside from that, tomorrow is the day that I plan to confess my grades to my dad. I don't' think that he'll want to disown me but I know that he won't be too happy about it either. I really wish, like realllllly wish, that I gotten two more points in something for my Econ 13 class. Just two points away from a solid A! So close yet my heart breaks every time I think about it. Instead of having that 3.75 GPA I wanted I got the 3.6675. I can't believe 2 pts can cause such a thing. It irritates me so much. Well, at least I'm still on the Deans Honor List. :/

I don't know if I am able to embrace Winter Quarter with open arms. I'm definitely scared about writing, esp. that it is 39C. Research. T_T I'm only excited for MWF classes cause my friend Jenny and I shared that identical schedule. We'll be hanging out a lot ;). Also, I think I should watch my diet this quarter aka no food binging on chips, junk food, candy, etc, when I'm stressing, bored, or probably PMS-ing. I also need to run. *sigh sigh sigh* I've been eating nonstop since I got back home. I really need to learn how to cook. I'm glad that mom is going to teach me how to make curry. She makes them so bomb-ass, not even kidding. ugh. I always get so easily hungry now. boo.

Okay, to lighten up my already depressed mood, I'll talk about some Korean Dramas that I have been watching lately:
1) Mary Stayed Out All Night: I was kind of excited since there were so much hype about it, and sure, it was pretty interesting in the beginning. And of course, Jang Geun Suk is in it. What's there to not love? Well, as the drama went on, it was slightly getting boring cause it was moving slow. Like, things kept happening repeatedly, i.e. the company wanted to hire him but he said no, and that happened like 3 times, when we all know that he's going to get hired anyway. So yeah, I stopped watching probably on episode 4? 5? Oh well, I just know that I will continue to watch it when I'm done with the rest of the dramas I started.

2) Secret Garden: Oh. Em. Gee. I am totally addicted to this one. Totally filled with laughter and so much romance that girls can't possibly ask for more. Hyun Bin is the BEST! THE BEST! I'm totally not even joking. He is such a great actor and when he played as a girl (cause they switched bodies), it was totally plausible. He CAN act like a girl for sure. And for the main actress, I love her as well. This drama is seriously one of my favorites. It'll probably be one that I'm going to re-watch in the future. Now, I'm just waiting for Episode 11 cause I finished watching all the episode they had in two days. God, this drama is seriously love. (p.s. i'll admit that the first two episode might take awhile but it's well worth the wait)

3) Love Buffet: A taiwanese episode based off a japanese manga. I was first intrigued cause I was in a manga phase (hana yori dango, hana kimi, etc.) so I decided to give this a try. Umm, I didn't really like the acting. That's all I can say, so you can probably guess that I stopped watching, which is what I did... Couldn't even finish the first episode. :/ Guys weren't even my type of cute :

4) Flames of Ambition: So this korean drama is about a "conglomerate" family which is pretty screwed up. I believe that I watched 5 episodes already mainly cause I really liked the child's acting. I tried to explain what was happening in this drama to my friend yesterday and it was confusing cause everything was so family tied up, in other words, there was probably some incest. I might continue to watch cause I'm a person that likes watching a main character climb up the social ladder and manipulates people. It gets me to think how such ways are possible. Insteresting, I say, very interesting.

5) Queen of Reversal: Now I'm watching this and it's mainly for the actress. I. LOVE. HER. from the very beginning of Queen of Housewives. (The two dramas have nothing to do with each other) The actress, Kim Nam Joo, is so cute for her age. I really like her acting though some people might find it annoying. It's probably because she does a lot of brown-nosing, but those are the kind of actions I like learning from ;P Well, so far the drama itself isn't quite bad. People might say it's boring, but I'm really biased here. I like it a lot for some reason, but it's probably a drama I won't recommend. Just a drama for personal enjoyment. Yeah, I'm weird. :((

Well, I guess I'm done rambling on Korean Drama for now. I really can't wait for SECRET GARDEN EP. 11!!!!! GAH! I LOVE HYUN BIN!!! >< So cute. So yeah, I think I might blog a bit more such cause Winter Break is being boring to me. haha. ciao.

- s00z3n <3 :)

Mixed Feelings

I dislike moments when I don't know whether I should be feeling elated or depressed. It's raining right now, my most favorite weather. I loved the rain ever since I was little. When it rained, I was always ecstatic and something inside of me always wanted to burst with laughter. Instead, I only got giddy and continued with my task. Now, I feel so dead. I don't want to smile. I don't want to do anything but stare into space.

I am dead because my grades are out. Two A's, One A-, and One B. That one A- was so close to an A. It was 0.2% away from an A. I am devestated. Just totally devastated. I knew I could have done better. guess that's all i'm going to say for now.

WINTER BREAK

I really wanted to blog yesterday but I didn't have internet. Fortunately, I got it fixed today with the help from a very intelligent tech geek. Hooray!

I can’t believe that fall quarter went too fast. At times it was slow, actually not really. I think it went by too fast. I liked my stats class (Econ 15A). Even though the teacher was slightly annoying, he taught quite well. I learned a lot from him about statistics, not so much about probability. I’m still a probability retard. Hopefully, on the final, I get more than 10 questions correct because if I don’t, I’m going to be seeing a B on my report card, and I WILL kill myself. I can’t believe that all my grades depend on my final: this stats class, my global economy class, bio, not really Econ 100A. I know for a fact that even if I get a 100 on my final, I’m still going to get a B. But with bio and Econ 13, it really depends on how well I did on my final. I hope I did well. If I didn’t, instead of seeing clouds and bright lights, I’ll be seeing fire, rocks, little red guys with wings, etc. That’ll definitely be a blast… not.

I’m still so tired. My last final was Friday at NIGHT at 7-9 PM. That was like the last day with the last final, so I had to treat myself. I went to Starbucks and treated myself and Jenny to some of their delicious pastries. Yum, good stuff. It was buy one get one free, but I got two free so YES! Hehe. On the way back home, I discovered that I am growing my wisdom teeth, but right now it’s just tooth. It doesn’t hurt oddly but I’m not complaining.

Back home is such a bore. I’m glad I didn’t get into any big fights yet with my parents. I did get chastised by my dad a couple of times now, but I try to take it lightly and let it brush off. *sigh* I DON”T WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK! I’m glad that this break is 3 weeks long and not like summer which was like what, A MILLION YEARS?! So yeah, maybe I can get through this break without any troubles. Oh wait, that’s not going to happen because my dad is going to see my B and I’ll get murdered. Oh well, winter quarter, come sooner please.

-s00z3n <3 :)

I Have To Say

I think I'm quite happy today. Actually, not really. Well, this week is finals week and of course it means studying and reviewing the notes the professors went over in class. However, for me, it means that I had to re-teach myself everything otherwise I definitely would have failed. I'm glad that I really did understand cause I managed to get 4 of the 6 problems done. Not sure if I had them all correct but I do know that without my self-teaching, I might as well have not gone to the final at all. There were two problems that were quite difficult. I really hope for a HUGE curve and somehow, I might manage to scrape an A- but I might as well just knock myself out with a pan cause that would have a higher chance of happening than me getting that A-. Oh well, I'll be looking for another sleepless night while I review for my Stats finals. Seriously, I'm so happy cause I can just do 10 out of 18 problems correctly, and I'll still get that solid A. However, I've been practicing on some practice tests, and sadly, I could answer only like two max. *sigh* Why is it that my brain is a leaky faucet? I need it to be fixed now. But that's not going to happen especially when I only had one hour of sleep the night before.

-s00z3n <3 :)

HAVING NO WIFI SUCKS!

So it's been a week already and my friend and I have been dying since there is no internet. Whenever Natasha and I want to go on the internet, we have to wait for our other apt-mates to use their computers. They are able to get internet access through the internet cables, but when Natasha and I use ours, we can't cause we don't have this "anti-virus" thing installed, apparently. Also, the wireless router died here, so we're waiting for the one that Ana ordered. Can't wait until it come and WORKS!

Well yesterday, tennis club had the Secret Santa Kickback where we exchange gifts. I feel so bad cause the gift for my person didn't come in time... and it's still not here yet. -_- I hope it comes during finals week cause I really want to give it to her. Well, it was a fun night. Never stayed out that late before. I'm always home before 10. I wasn't back until 12:30 at night and thank god Colleen let me borrowed her bike, cause I got back to CV [from ARC/Camino del Sol] in 10 minutes. So anyways, it was a fun night. I was the 22nd person to go so I waited for everyone opening their presents. Even though I'm not a big fan of Christmas and the holidays and such, I am a big fan of seeing people opening their presents. One, it's cause they don't know what they're going to get so when you see their faces, they have an expression of excitement and anticipation and hope. It's just a really nice feeling. Also, when they do see their presents, their faces light up and it is just great when they have this huge smile plastered on their face and laughing with joy. The feeling is just so unforgettable and so memorable. Anywho, I'm really REALLY happy with my gift. Cause why? CAUSE I GOT A STITCH MUG!! S2 S2 S2 LOVE LOVE LOVE!! and I got chocolates :)

Well, it's finals week. So much studying to do. Everything is so hard core so I better get my game on. My friend and I are going to study our butts off at the library tomorrow. haven't been there since last year :x

-s00z3n <3 :)

Smile//Uncle Kracker

Oh Crap Oh Crap Oh Crap

I should not have opened the mysoju page. OH CRAP! I have a feeling that when I get back to Irvine, I'm going to be addicted to Korean Dramas again! Mysoju just showed me its two top dramas and I really wanna watch them now! One is called Secret Garden, and the other is called Mary Stayed Out All Night. OH CRAP! and it's almost finals week too! ohemgeeee!!

Oh wait, our wifi broke so no internet for me anyways, and my stupid cable doesn't work either. So I guess I can say I'm safe... for now.

Happy Turkey Day

So I didn't really celebrate Thanksgiving today. Today was just another ordinary day at home where I wake up, eat breakfast, do HW, eat lunch, do more HW, go out to play tennis and run with my dad, and do more HW. *Sigh* What can you really do when you have Asian parents who don't like celebrating some holiday cheer. Ahh well. When I grow, it shall be a tad bit different.

- Secret Santa -
Man, buying gifts are so difficult especially for the person you don't know what to get. I'm looking at ebay and I can't find a lot of stuff. And I can't go out and buy it because I'm rarely ever let out of the house. So far, I got some stuff that the person likes; I just hope that it gets shipped in time, cause if it doesn't, it would totally suck.

- Grades -
Bio Sci 1A: I have no idea how I'm doing. First midterm, I got a B-. Second, I got an A. And the final, which is worth the same as the midterms, I reallllly hope I get an A, cause right now, I think I'm averaging an A-. SO SAD!! T^T
Econ 15A: I believe that I will only need to get 11 out of 15 correct on the final. My last four tests, I got a 140, 140, 110 and 120. So I can drop the 110, and probably won’t even have to take the 5th test. I just need to take the final and get at least 11 correct. Hopefully, that will happen.
Econ 100A: So, I don’t think I can get an A in this class anymore, nor even scrape an A-. The highest I can get in this class is a B+ so it really sucks. I’m really praying for a miracle that there will be the hugest curve but that won’t happen because my class is consumed of many geeks and nerds who gets 99 and 100s. I wish I were one of them.
Econ 13: I think I might have a chance to scrape a solid A. I’m not totally sure. Oh wait, I can, only if I get a full 100 percent on the final. Dammit. That will be quite difficult. My homework is a solid 99%. For quizzes, I’ve been averaging B- and the midterm I got a B-. Hence, I really need the 100% on the final. NOT even joking.

- Winter Quarter Schedule -
So, even since some previous posts before, I didn’t talk about my schedule and how it’s not stupendous anymore. Yeah… At least I got the classes I wanted. Mgmt 30B, Soc Sci 3A, and Writing 39C. My dream schedule is all messed up now. It’s not back to back like I wanted. Instead, I have to wake up at 7 in the morning on Tuesday and Thursday. Come back at 7:30 on Wednesday nights. So sads. I also added an extra Sociology class. I might drop it. Not sure yet. I’ll have to check out the workload from Writing 39C.

Here’s my Winter Schedule:



- Movies -
Last Sunday night, I got to go to the movies with my friends. :D And of course, we watched Harry Potter, the 7th one!! I didn’t even get to watch the 6th one yet tho, but whatever, I’ll watch it in the near future. Well, needless to say, the seventh movie was good. I liked how it followed the book pretty well. Sadly, there were some parts I got bored in, but a few parts were a great laugh. Favorite part was probably when George walked in when Harry and Ginny were making out. “Mooooor-ning. ;)” And of course, I cried when Bellatrix killed Debbie. BELLATRIX KILLED DEBBIE!!! LMAO! So yeah. Too bad I didn’t get to see when they got Hedwig. My dad called me in the middle of the movie and I had to get out to answer him. Boo.

Well, I can’t wait to get back to Irvine, like always.

-s00z3n <3 :)

MIDTERMS!!

So I thought my Bio Midterm was this upcoming Thursday. WRONG!!




IT'S F***ING TOMORROW!!!

Janet! Dr. Scott! Janet! Brad! ROCKY!

"Don't dream it, be it."

On Tuesday, Glee presented its Rocky Horror Picture Show which is based off of the movie, The Rocky Horror Picture Show. When watching Glee, I got the main gist of the plot but I was way clueless about the music and songs it presented. Thus, Jenny and I decided to watch the actual movie. I. Was. Mind. Blown. And honestly, not in a bad way either.

Natasha, the queen of knowledge, stated that it was quite a provocative show. Hesitant, I, a sheltered, innocent, naïve girl, was still quite curious and interested to watch the movie since, I mean, COME ON, Glee featured it. So I began to watch starting with that ginormous red lip talking/singing.

When it ended, I was completely and utterly in love with this musical. And I was in love. I loved Dr. Frank-n-furt, the transvestite. He is the epitome of greatness. You might think I’m being biased because I have an attraction/obsession with gays [and bi] even though I’m full on straight. (I love them because they have an open preference and are they just not cute? They are the best.) So yeah, I love Dr. Frank-n-furt and just purely love Tim Curry’s acting. This musical is just AHHHH-mazing. I love the songs too. LOVE! Dammit Janet is currently stuck in my head.

So today, the schedule for next quarter’s classes came out. I’m happy that I 1) am only going to take 12 units, 2) the classes I am planning to take are all listed (hopefully, I can get in them), and 3) the professors I got are quite adequate if I am taking ratemyprofessor.com ‘s advice. I am quite displeased that they are all back to back including the discussion, so every Tuesday and Thursday, I’ll be waking up at 7 in the morning to get ready for my 8 o’clock class, and be back at my apartment around 3:30. Yes that is like 7 hours of lecture straight. Oh well, I think I can manage; all I have to think about is my MWFs. They’ll brighten up my mood.

But what is going to dampen my mood right now is the meaningful important studying I have to do, so I’ll keep this post short and say “Cheerio” for now.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Note to self: Still need to watch Harry Potter 5 and 6 before I go watch the epic 7th Part 1.

Paper. Snow. A GHOST!

I am now back in Temple City from a speedy 50 minute drive from Irvine given by Colleen’s dad. I, ironically, like the drive back to TC than the drive to Irvine because it is much faster, Colleen and I are able to talk freely without being openly eavesdropped from [my dad], and it’s cool at night. The drive to Irvine: the sun is beating down at us and into the car, the traffic and the snail-like drive given by my dad. Let’s just say that the ride home is more comfortable.

Well, now that I am back in TC, do I fancy it? No, not really. Of course, I’ll honestly admit that I do very much miss my parents and everything about this “home”-ly abode, but I would very much rather stay in Irvine. It is just something about TC makes me “hate” it so. I don’t know why. The people? The memories? I’ll stop at that.

It is indeed midterm week and I am going through hell. I have been overeating because of stress. Yes, I currently found out that when I am stressed, I am unaware and subconsciously start to eat. I don’t even know how I got to the fridge, pull out some leftover food or snack, and shove it down my throat. What is worse is that it is like 2 in the morning and I’m like a zombie wanting to eat junk and candy instead of brains. I am seriously begging God to let me lose five years of my life. ( that was sarcasm in case you guys didn’t get it.)

So yes, midterms. I can’t say they are the death of me yet but I can tell you that they are prodding and poking me to jump off a cliff and I do have to say that it is very tempting. There are just way too many facts and information to remember, too many formulas to memorize and too many passages to read, even if they are short. I personally might be a pack rat but my brain isn’t. Sadly, my cerebrum does have limited storage memory space, so bye-bye excess information and hello F+. I’m not even joking. My class Econ 15A, I might be doing splendidly in, but in my Econ 13 class, shoot me. Just shoot me. I swear, even if the TA took that midterm, they’d be at home blogging an hour away on how difficult that midterm was. So broad yet so very specific. I swear, that midterm was undoable, and even if it was doable, it’d manage to do itself up so people can’t do it. Now, this upcoming week, I have two more tests I need to put my mind on: Econ 100A and once again, Econ 15A. I really hope I do well on this Econ 15A test because if I do do well then I won’t have to worry about this class until December. As for Econ 100A, I’m going to have to study my arse off if I want to keep on texting.

Well, as we all know, Halloween is just around the corner. This Sunday is Halloween and I want to go trick-or-treating, but I probably won’t because I’m really lazy, so I’ll be watching the Amazing Race supporting Team Jumba. I hope they do well. Since we’re on the topic of holidays, I really want to go to a Black Friday. I don’t think I’ll buy anything, but I would really like to know what the hype is but looks like I’ll never find out until 10 years in the future.

Can’t wait until Sunday, and I especially can’t wait until tomorrow since that is when I can start to plan my next quarter schedule. Next quarter I will be taking 12 units since I’m going to take Writing 39C. Just shoot me when I talk about it. I will also be taking Mgmt 30B and one more class. I am leaning towards Soc Sci 3A but it really depends on the professor. So shoot me tomorrow if I see “STAFF”.

I realize I say “shoot me” a lot. If a person with a gun took that literally, I’d have four bullets in my body right now. Maybe five.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Raining :)

Funny how my previous post was about the super hot weather I couldn't live in because I kept on sweating 24/7. Now, it is raining and I'm totally loving it. Just not the time when I had my classes and I had to run through the rainstorm to get to the lecture hall. That was horrible, not to mention forgetting my umbrella at home home (Temple City). For my 11 o'clock class, I had to walk with my friend Simon so I can freeload some shelter from his umbrella, I was soaked, sadly, from the knees down. And when I thought that was bad enough, when my 2:00 class was done, which was 3:30, the sky was pouring! I was seriously drenched. I looked as if I took a shower with my clothes on. My socks and shoes were all muddy; my pants were clingy to my legs; my jacket changed colors from light gray to dark gray; my hair was completely wet. Yep, it totally sucks when you're walking, no running, through the pouring rain without an umbrella. Yes, I'd much very rather be in a nice cozy apartment typing away on my blog on my computer with a bowl of trail mix next to me that I can chow on.

Well there are a lot of tests coming up. Last week or two, I got my first stats test back, a 140/150. I know it's not bad but I wish I could have explained my answer better. I know that I could've got all the points. I also sort of screwed up on my Bio midterm; I'll try better next time. *sigh* I have a Statistics test this Friday, a Econ 13 HW due on Friday as well, a midterm next week for Econ 100A. SO. MUCH. STUFF. TO. DO! BOOO! Well, I have something to look forward to this weekend. I might be going to the mall on Saturday and Sunday night I'll be going to Knott's Scary Farm. Wow, total hangover on Monday morning.

I wanted to go to the vendors fair today but it's all closed cause of the rain/pouring. I'll go tomorrow and see if I can get something for my friend's birthday. I also want to find some nice rings and boots. NEEEEEED boots for this weather. Yesterday, I bought a ring that says I love ninjas. CUTENESS!! :D

Well, I should go study. Damn, I missed blogging. haha <3

-s00z3n <3 :)

IT IS TOO HOT HERE!

Gah! Irvine, I thought you'd be uber cool since you're so near the beach, but no, you had to rise up to 108 degrees to the point where my skin is melting like ice cream even when I am indoors. I can't even have a good nights sleep since it is so hot so I just ended up tossing and turning until it was 8 and got up since I couldn't take it anymore. And dear computer, I also do not fancy you much this minute since you always burn up the minute I turn you on. *plznopervertedthoughtsharharhariknow*

Classes are not too bad lately cause it's only like the 4th day of school. I'm so scared of my Econ 15A class. The professor keeps emphasizing that it is not easy which makes me personally super scared. Also, the class is filled with a LOT of hard-core Asian people and that is a double "eek" cause it'll make the class super competitive. I should make a friend in that class; I think it'll do me good than just sitting by myself. The online hw doesn't really help much either. I get a heart attack every time I click "submit." But thank god there was no Econ 13 yesterday cause the class got canceled since the teacher was sick so yippee.

Last night, I attended a sorority rush with my friends, Ana and Bonnie, to get free pizookie at BJs. I know Ana will join but I don't know about myself. I hope I can go just for the connections and networking and it seems really fun, but I'm scared about the cost and the commitment. Still deciding. But I'm still gonna go today cause there will be free pizza. hehe. I really like the people there though. I think they are super cool and super nice. Hmmm. Note to self: Decide you fickle brain!

Class in an hour. Econ 100A. So not looking forward to it. An 1 and 1/2 hr class. But at least I'll be air conditioned. Whee!

-s00z3n <3 :)

Classes TODAY!

So classes are starting today! Some students already started school at 8 (currently 8:40). Mine is at 11. First class of mine is Econ 100A. Upper Division class! DX but at least, it is a "good" teacher. Not too sure. :/ Since that class ends at 12:30, being a 1 1/2 hr class, I'll walk around campus and see what there is to do since, my second class starts at 2, which is Bio Sci 1A. So yep, hoping that this will be a good year.

-MONDAY
Like I kept on saying the past few days, on Monday, there was the club fair. I joined a lot but I'm definitely not going attend all. I'll go to ones like Chinese Association and Accounting, maybe tag along with Ana in her sorority. I'm not totally sure yet, so we'll see.

-TUESDAY
Went to the Spectrum in the afternoon. Bought a vest I really like there. I was going to buy some other stuff but they were either too expensive or they didn't have it. Got Jamba there and had to rush back since it was already 5:31 and the last bus left at 5:30. Went with Jenny, Vanessa, and Kenneth which was quite fun. Ana, Colleen, Bonnie, and others were gonna go but they later decided not to. Ah well. Next time guys! :]

-WEDNESDAY
I attended the Antourage Dodgeball World Breaking Record Event. I got a free shirt!, a pompom, a stick-on tattoo, and sunglasses. hehe. Dodgeball itself was so crazy. Balls were flying everywhere. People getting hit left and right. It was a bit sad that the blue team lost. haha (Yes, I was part of the blue team.) You see all these skinny asian kids playing against the tall white people. haha. Not that the team were assigned tho. People got to choose, so yeah. It was great since we broke the world record, having 1700 some people. Crazy!

-s00z3n :) <3

IN CAMPUS VILLAGE!!

So today, I FINALLY MOVED IN!!! WHOOP-EE!! I'm in my little apartment, in my little room typing this up at 11:40 p.m. I'm really sleepy but I can't not type this up cause it is such a special occasion! The day I have been waiting for is finally here and I'm enjoying it as much as possible!!

Today started out with me waking up killing ants just like any other day. Ate breakfast and then did some programming. Around 10:30, I went to Caltech to get an Ethernet cable cause mine was too short. Got that and went back home to cook lunch for dad. Did some more programming and finally 2:30 rolled around and I was head to IRVINE!!

However, I still needed some stuff like toothbrush and water. So we went to the Costo in Tustin. I was getting super pissed at this family. It took them a solid ten minutes to just pack and drive away so we can later park our car in their parking spot. Unnecessary much? Well, bought our stuff. Damn it costs a lot. Well, eventually, I got to Campus Village and was excited like crazy. Got all my stuff to the apartment and rearranged the room. Sorta sad that Bonnie doesn't really like it but honestly there is no other way of it working. Went to the cluster meeting and had 3 slices of pizza. (Note: Will not fair well with the cake I ate for breakfast and lunch.) And at night, I attended the Banana Split event as well. Yay for double calories... not. Well, watched Epic Movie and then when to play a bit of pool. Twas a fun day as compared to my summer days. harhar! :)

-s00z3n <3 :)

P.S. Texting in two minutes!

TOMORROW!!

GAH!! Tomorrow is the day! FINALLY!! THE DAY I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR ALLLL my LIFE!

So, yes, tomorrow I will be moving into Campus Village!! >< I'm so excited! Like I said, I don't even have to pack so early cause I'm already done, and I was finished in like 2 hours. So now I'm bored. But I get really paranoid in case if I forget something since I'm not going to be going home for quite a bit. But yay! It's here! The day is finally here!

It's going to be a great week. Yesterday was my last day of work so yay! Tomorrow I'll be moving in! Monday, my text will be activated and there will be a club fair. There will also be Late Night at the ARC but I'm not too interested in that since I went last year and I was pretty bored. Tuesday, I'll be SHOPPING! Leaving UCI to go to the Spectrum!!! around 12:30 or maybe 1. I don't need a lot of time to shop, so 4 hours will be good enough. LMAO! And then at night, there will be Aldrick Park after Dark. I don't really know what that means, but I'll be going anyways. Wednesday, I'll go with Cecilia to the Antourage! Gettin' my free SHIRT! HAR HAR HAR! and probably attend the dogdeball thing to break a new world record or something. I don't think I'll participate much. D; Thursday, CLASSES START!! OH EM GEE!! TOO SOON!!! DX But it's only Bio Sci and Econ 100A. Ugh! haha Friday, we could've gone to the beach but I'm not going since I have class (Econ 15A and Econ 13) from 5-7 respectively. So, after class, I'll just go back to the apartment and rest peacefully. Since I won't be going home that weekend, I'll be hanging around and boring the crap out of myself somehow someway. Meh. I'm just excited for this week. This rest can screw it. haha jk.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Starving

I'm at work again. After today, it'll be just 3 more days and I'm free! My stomach is growling like crazy. I wish it was 12 already or at least 11:30 so I can eat already.

I'm currently watch Sungkyunkwan Scandal. Yes, another KDrama. I like the soundtrack a lot but I think the story is pretty slow, but not really. It's like a 2 so far from 1 to 5. (I'm a pretty hard ranker when it comes to Asian Dramas.) The actors are not that cute in the drama, well some are, but in they are in real life cute. It must be because their hair are pulled back into a hat. (It's a historic KDrama, btw.) But yeah, some are quite cute. I like the actress a lot. I think she is pretty and cute at the same time. Pretty as a girl, and cute as a boy. Well, that's all I can say for now about this drama, since it is pretty slow. I dunno.

God, I'm so hungry. I know; I'll start a countdown.
- 3 more days until I finish work.
- 5 more days until I return to Irvine.
- 6 more days until I can text.
- 7 more days until Spectrum and Glee!

Well, that's all I have for now. But seriously, shouldn't I be ecstatic and excited?! I think I'm going to drink water now. I'm really really dying here.

Cellphone

So yesterday, I got texting!! UNLIMITED TOO!! I can't believe it was my dad who offered that. However, he'll be checking my texts a lot. D; haha Oh well, I'm excited! :] I'm also excited that in a year, I'll be getting a new phone! One that probably has a keyboard so I can type and not do the T9 thingy. Well, my texting doesn't start until September 20 and that's exactly when School/Welcome Week starts! :D So it's a "just in time thing". *happy happy*

ONE MORE WEEK!

Exactly in one week, I'll be driving back to Irvine! Which reminds me, I should start packing, but I tend to pack really fast so that's okay. I can pack the day before and still be ready. Can't wait!

I saw Bonnie and Lilly yesterday! They came by my house to drop off the keys lent Lilian then Bailey. Saw Colleen today cause she's borrowing my keys and staying at my place for a few days since her place is getting re-painted.

*Sigh* I have a meeting at 2 later. I can't wait until Friday cause that is the last day I'll be working at CalTech. Of course I'll still be working, but I won't have to go there everyday.

I'm getting texting today sometime this evening. I was suppose to get it yesterday but my dad said to do it today, so I just agreed. I can't wait!

So I'm really happy cause last night, I was buying books and dang it, they are ridiculously expensive! Each one for me is like $180 New or $120 Used. But I bought a book for $35! and the other one I'm going to rent it for $50. That is seriously sooo much cheaper. I'm glad that there is only two books that I need to buy. One of my other classes didn't need a book :D and the other my friend, Simon, just gave it to me. :) All I need to do now is to sell the books I have so yes, life is not bad lately.

Ugh!!! Irvinee! and Welcome Week! I can't wait! On Monday, I'll be joining clubs. Tuesday is Spectrum Day. I think Wednesday, I'll be going to my counselor and ask on how to prioritize my classes and stuff, and ask random questions. Thursday, CLASSES START!!! >< God, I'm soo not excited about my Econ 15A classes. A test every other week! D: haha but the rest are okay, I hope. Well, Thursday is my Bio Sci class and Econ 100A class, and since both aren't too crazy, it won't be too bad hopefully.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Federer V. Soderling

I'm currently watching the U.S. Open right now: Federer vs. Soderling. I'm personally cheering for Federer. I want him to be the king of tennis again.

Well, today I thought it was my mom's birthday so when I went back home from work, I bought her a cheesecake to surprise her. Sadly, it wasn't her birthday. MY FAULT! Oh well, I got to eat cake today. HAR HAR!

Activated my credit card. :3 and gonna go get texting this weekend. 10 more days until IRVINE!! :)

Dear Blogger,

I can't wait for Irvine! I know my posts seem so redundant, always talking about not being able to wait until school starts, but I'm just way too ecstatic! In less than 11 days, I'll be back! I was really hoping that I would return on Saturday, Sept 18, but since my dad isn't able to take me cause he's taking this huge test, I'll be returning on Sept. 19, Sunday. Boo hoo but oh well. One extra day spending time with family wouldn't hurt.

This weekend, my dad is going to take me to the cellphone shop and we're going to sign me for TEXT MESSAGING!!! YIPEE! I don't know how many texts I'm going to get. I really want unlimited but that's too expensive. So my dad is going to check it out and see what's the cheapest or something. Ah well, TEXTING though!

Well anywho, once I return to Irvine, I can't wait to see my friends again! I mentioned that quite a lot haha. I also can't wait for Welcome Week! I'm going to join more clubs I think. I'll probably join a Chinese club and a Business club, or maybe a Community Service Club. On Tuesday, there are going to be buses that will be going to Spectrum! I'm planning to attend. hehe Gonna go buy me some clothes :] Can't believe that classes start on Thursday! I'm so scared about my Econ 15A class. Typically, classes have like a midterm and a final. This has like 6 tests! That's triple the exams! UGH! But i'm quite glad that I have an easy Econ 100A teacher. A friend told me that he's really good and nice. Teehee :) Bio Sci with Karen!! haha and Ana, Natasha, and Cecilia! And lastly, Econ 13 with Bonnie and Jenny. There is a new professor for this class so I'm like bummer not knowing whether he/she is easy/hard. Yay! I can't wait. Ah well that's all. I'm also excited for GLEE!! :3

My feet smells like ham.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Rich Man Poor Love

So, I'm rewatching a drama that I really like. Rich Man Poor Love. It's mainly this really rich man who fell in love with a girl who already has a boyfriend. The girlfriend finds the rich man annoying and sticks with her boyfriend. However, the boyfriend gets caught in an accident and in order to keep him alive, she needs money. So she goes to the rich man and they make a contract that she has to be married to him for one year. And of course, you can guess if they fall in love or not.

This is seriously a situation that I would not like to be in, but you just can't help yourself from dreaming about a rich CUTE guy from falling in love with you at first sight. And when you push him away, he won't stop coming back. He sets his eyes on you and that's that, he won't change his mind cause it's you he wants. *sigh* It's way too unrealistic but still oh so dreamy. *sigh*

So, obviously, I'm going to talking about the guy, Meng Hao. He's played by Deng Chao and yes, I know that he looks old and un-cute, but I'm heads over heels for him. He has this really cute boy-ish smile and smirk and god, he's like perfect. He's so mature and such a greeeeat actor. *drool* In the drama, I feel really bad for the boyfriend though, the one that gets into an accident. But I guess it can't be helped. :(

Here's a picture of Deng Chao: s2

COMMUNITY!

So there is this show called Community and I heart it oh so much!! haha I'm not new to it or anything (I've been watching since last year). It's just that I found a personality quiz on who you're like in Community, and I had a surprising result, but I'm not surprised. haha

RESULT! *drumroll*

I"M LIKE JEFF!! :OOO hahah i'd never guessed!

Which Community Character Are You?

More on Community. Created by BuddyTV

I was hoping for Britta or Abed but I got Jeff! haha. It's not like I don't like Jeff, played by Joel McHale btw; it's just that I like him loads and never expect to be like him! haha

Well anywho, Love Community!

Korean Drama Blurbs

I am currently really very bored right now. I should be doing some statistics problems and self learn since I epically suck at stats and probability and that I'm going to be taking it this quarter, but nah, I want to do some blogging on what I said I was going to do yesterday which is talking about some Korean dramas. Wow, that is one long grammatically incorrect sentence.

*** MY GIRLFRIEND IS A NINE-TAILED FOX ***
I love this drama. It is so cute. Lee Seung Gi is the main actor who plays Dae Woong. He released the Gumiho, a nine-tailed fox. The Gumiho is played by Shin Min Ah and she is so cute. I love smile and pouty face. But more on the guy. ;) Lee Seung Gi may be a jerk in the drama but he's so cute. I really like one of the main song he sings which is in my little sidebar song thingy. It's called "Losing My Mind."UGH! Love this drama. People might think it's pretty stupid since there are a lot of things that contradicts itself, but there are so many touching moments, and I love the OST. The songs are so awesome.

*** KING OF BAKING, KIM TAK GU! ***
Love this drama too. Mainly about two guys who compete in becoming the best baker. It also includes many family problems about social status and affairs. I really really like one character but he plays the evil guy. The character's name is Ma Joon, and he's played by the actor Joo Won. I love his hair in the drama and he is just so cute. He may be uber evil in the drama but his real self's smile is soo cute. UGH! Kim Tak Gu is pretty cute too, played by Yoon Shi Yoon. Though I don't especially like him cause he constantly reminds me of Lee Jun Ki, and my heart already belongs to LJK. :) Well, I love this drama except the CLIFFHANGERS!!! Whenever they come, just shoot me, seriously. haha

Well, I'm also watching other random Korean dramas but those two are the main ones. I think I should go back to work or work on Statistics. LMAO!

-s00z3n <3 :)

In a Meeting... Again

I am at another update meeting where I have to listen to Caltech scholars announcing their latest updates on what they are doing. I still have no clue on what they are talking about. So, what I have been doing while they've been talking is redecorating my BlogSpot site. Hehe. Still Green and Purple matching the colors of the eggplant. I think the previous look was better, but I got a new music player so I had to adjust the page to make it look better. Hehe. Music player currently contains two songs: Metro Station and a korean song that I am in love with. I might write a Korean drama post later.

Well, anywho, life is not changing much. I can't believe that there are 20 days left until I go to Irvine. I still remember the time in June where I'm saying 82 more days. Haha. Time sure flew and I'm really happy about it. Even though I'm really excited for Irvine, I'm super scared about classes. Sure, I'm excited for more learning but the midterms and finals. They freak me out. I'll have to really really work hard to raise my GPA. Still really low even though I think it improved greatly from a 2.8. *SIGH*.

The classes I'm taking are all Econ classes and one Bio Sci class. I don't know which class I should be freaking out about. Should it be bio sci cause I hear that the midterm and finals are pretty hard? Not really, since I hear that the curve is uber huge. I'll probably freak out about Econ 15A since it's Statistics and Probability, and honestly, who likes those classes? I think the classes I should really be freaking out about are the classes that I don't know who my professors are... yet. I don't know who is teaching the Econ 15A and Econ 13 so I don't know if I can say they are easy or not even though they are lower division classes. My Econ 100A is an upper-division class but I hear (fine, I looked it up on ratemyprofessor.com) that the professor is quite nice so that is a plus. Well, all I can do now is wait and see. And even though I do not like my professors, there is nothing I can do about it since they are the only classes I can take, except Bio Sci. So yep. Fun? Exciting? God, I sure hope so.

Still, I can't stop anticipating what it will be like when I return to Irvine. Yogurtland/Golden Spoon, In=n-Out, and Lee's Sandwich are waiting for me. Waking up late everyday since I don't have classes until 5 in the afternoon. Talking with friends and just hanging out. *sigh* 20 more days.

In a Meeting

Summer is such a bore. I'm currently in a meeting right now listening to updates from crazy smart CalTech scholars. Nothing I understand, of course.

The weather is really whack right now. How can June to early August be so cool and all of a sudden, it becomes burning hot at the end of August. It seems like summer just started. I would complain a lot but not this time. Why? Cause I bought camis from WetSeal online and I just got them yesterday. I got 4 cami tank top, white t-shirt, a vest/wrap, and high heels! I love them but I'll get paranoid about breaking them since the heels are like 3 inches. Eek! So, I feel okay if the hot weather is around now, but I can't wear it until Irvine.

Oh god how much I miss Irvine. I miss my "room". Haha, in quotes cause I share it with my roommate. I can't wait to decorate my desk and wall next to my bed. Oh my god, I miss sleep. I totally miss my friends. I can't wait for them to cook for me. ;) I can't wait for movie nights. I can't wait to go shop with them. Even to the beach if they have the strength to drag me along. hehe. God I miss them. Personally, I miss Irvine's beauty:the scenic locations and the calm atmosphere. I miss the little food shops especially, my little soft spot. I swear I'll be visiting Yogurtland and Lee's a lot more. haha. Above all, I miss classes. No, I am not saying that I'm excited to write essays nor am I ready to take a midterm. I just miss learning and being educated. I need school to start now! So jealous of the people with semester class.

I hate it when I have so much to talk about but I suddenly forget it all. So, just from the top of my head I want to say that I really have this bad cupcake addiction throughout the whole summer. I need the taste of frosting and sugar NOW!

My Computer is Burning Up and That's not the Only Thing

My hands feel like they are on fire. My computer is like a wanna-be-sun. Ah well. The weather today is totally whack. It was like so cold-ish last week and now I'm like totally sweating at 6 the morning. Uncool.

Well, if you didn't know, I haven't posted her in a long time and I feel bad. Haha. I don't think there was much to talk about at Irvine since everyday was like the same day repeating over and over again. Here, at home, it's not much different. Everyday is the same. It's just that here is more boring. I want to go back to Irvine. Hang out with friends.

Today, I webcammed with ANA LE! <3 So much fun cause I gossiped about MGMT GUY! Who by the way is not called J**** C***. lol Well yeah. I'm looking forward to Saturday cause my cousin is going to sleep over. Yay and we'll be baking brownies. Don't know how we're going to sleep though. A lot of crap on the bed which is upstairs and upstairs feels like a massive heat wave hit. So yeah. We're going to sleep downstairs somehow. Ahhh well. Nice to be back on bloggerrrr.

As the Clock Runs

Things are changing so drastically around here that it is getting a bit frightening. What I thought was going smoothly is actually turning very jagged and sharp. Don't know what is going to happen next year. Hopefully everything turns out alright. Nothing bad is happening, just the fact what was in front of me was definitely not obvious.

2 finals tomorrow. let's go. JIA YOU! GAMBATE!

ABC: Anything But Content

I'll list a few things that I'm going to talk about here before I forget:
Grades, Summer, CV, Saw Cute Guy today,

Well, firstly, my grades. I'm really worried about them. My math class is really really easy but now it's getting much more difficult. My first few quizzes were okay except the 16. The others were 20, 19, and 20. All out of 20. But the midterms are what pisses me off. So far, on both midterms, I got 89's. It is really depressing for me. I don't know why or what happened. I thought that the midterm was probably the easiest thing in the whole world. Now I lost my chance at chilling a little. You know that thing where people say reach higher so you can fall more later (if needed). Well, my reaching high was not high enough for me to chill. I need to step up...BIG! In my other classes, I believe that I'm getting an A in choir. Yeah, pretty sure about that. In Art History, I need to step up too. I'm in the B range but if I do really well on the final, I might have a chance of getting an A. In Econ, I'm totally clueless on what I have. A? B? C?!? No idea on any of my grades. That class is not easy by the way. But whatever. I just need to really push myself a bit more. I know I'll do well if I put some pressure on myself. No more slacking!

Well, 3 more weeks and then it's finals week and BAM! Summer. Dang it. 1st quarter went by really really fast. Like it was seriously a blink of an eye. Wait, would that be a wink? NVM. But dear God, Summer is close and nearly here. If you don't know me, you wouldn't know that I absolutely hate summer. I think it is the worst season ever. The heat, the rashes I get on my body, the boring days I spend a home with no one to talk to cause my parents are at work and my friends don't wake up until 5 in the afternoon to talk to online and that's when my parents come home to talk to me asking me what i did, which is basically nothing. Summer is just a bore. I can't even get out of my house. I'm really lonely in Summer. I hate it so much. Oh and tennis every night where it's so hot and all the little bugs come out and fly to the light, burn and die on the ground. Summer is just plain nasty. No relaxation at all as well. Shoot me. I'll admit that if probably took a class here at Irvine over the summer and hang out with my friends, it won't be that bad, but Summer is going to be at home, at work, all alone. Not my idea of awesomeness.

On a brighter note, I can't wait for Fall 2010. LIVING AT CV WITH MY AWESOME SUITEMATES! Ana, Natasha, and Bonnie and who can forget the rest: Colleen, Simon, Jenny, Kevin, Shiang, and so many more!! I can't wait for the apartment because I have a feeling that it'll be like Friends. (Yes, isn't it so stereotypical where we always want to base our lives on movies and TV shows.) Well anyways, no more meal plans so we're going to mainly have to cook for ourselves, which basically means living off of junk food. Mmm. Well, Bonnie is going to be my roommate and I can't wait. I hope she won't get annoyed with me

So the guy I have been talking about. The guy from the Mgmt class. I believe that I saw him today. No offence, (not like it's going to offend anyone) I'm going to eventually start losing feelings for him. Haha. Yeah, as much as I like being those girls who fan about chasing guys and wanting a boyfriend, I'm going to stop my silly little dreams. I am going to face reality soon and focus on what really matters. My future and how that will look like greatly depending on my studies. In other words, FOCUS S00Z3N!

-s00z3n <3 :)

Ironman 2

Two Words: Effing AWESOME!! S2

more later. too tired tonight.

This Will Be a Short Post

So, I'm back home again. Back at tiny little TC with no fun whatsoever. Well, on the drive back from Irvine with Colleen, Ana, and Simon, I was quite happy. Simon told me that he saw the cute guy from my management class, whom we dubbed "Jerry."

Simon [to me]: "I saw Jerry today. He was riding his blue bike and wearing his white sweater. He saw me and turned around when he passed me to check if you were there."
Me: *sigh and smile*

Whether Simon was joking or not about Jerry's turning around to see if I was there, it still make my heart flutter and smile with happy thoughts.

-s00z3n <3 :)

P.S. On the drive way back, we gave thoughts on how he might be gay. If he is, I'll be happy all the same. An ACTUAL GBF!!

Saw Him Again

So, ever since Winter quarter, I've been obsessing over this guy from my Management class. The first time I saw him, I thought he was cute but it was just a quick glance since I was scanning the room for cute guys. He was one of them. He wore a nice white sweater, black pants, and leather shoes. My thoughts? Ooo, classy. ;) He had a backpack on and I thought nothing more.

Every time, I would see him in class mainly because he came late... 20 minutes late, so he was well, quite noticeable. He would sit at random places but mainly on the left front side of the building. I sat on the left side of the building too so I would just stare from behind and see what he does, which is mainly note taking.

Once, I brought my friend Simon to the class and I was telling him about the cute guy. He saw and said nothing much. Some GBF he is (he's not actually gay, just acts like a girl most of the time). The second time I brought Simon over, the cute guy came in late, so he was trying to find a seat. I was sitting in seat 3 and Simon was in seat 2. Staring at him, I hope that he would sit in seat 1 but that was highly unlikely since there were so many other seats he could take. I refrained from watching him and went back to talk to Simon. Then a movement came behind from Simon. Someone was sitting down and as I looked up then down, it was HIM! It was the cute guy sitting one. seat. away. from. me. Inside was like fireworks. Simon kept prodding me and raising his eyes. He was so cute, wearing his leather shoes and this time light tan pants. I could've fainted. His feature aren't quite the ones that people would expect me to like. Rather than having the Rock Lee mushroom hair that I so adore, he had short hair. Not short to the point where he's bald. Short as in he had flat, but not curly, hair; just hair that is like 3/4 an inch long and it lied flat on his head. His looks and the way he dresses makes me think that he's like one or two years older than I am. He was thin and had sharp tan features on his face. Three moles behind his neck and had eyes that pierces through you. No, I didn't have that experience at that time, but I did have it a few weeks later.

Lectures after lectures, I would see him. It wasn't until this one day, I went to class and plopped down in a chair. The class was filling and I'll admit, everyday in the past, I wish he sat near me again. Today, I prayed exceptionally hard, but I lost home when the class started it. My row was filled except the three rows next to me. If I was lucky, he might sit in the empty row in front of me. Ten minutes into the lecture, I heard the door open. I turned around and saw him, strolling into the class and walking down the ramp with his dark blue bike. I quickly turned around and tried to follow lecture but there was a tiny bang from the left... from the cute guy. I looked up and had the eye to eye contact. My god was his face beautiful. Of all the places to look up, he looked at me. keke. I mean, he could have turned his head to the professor and make a small jerk like apology or he could have looked somewhere else, but instead, it was that moment where it was just us looking at each others face. I felt a little blush so I quickly twisted my head to the front of the room to look at the instructor but my eyes wouldn't listen. It's little beadiness followed the cute guy. Now this gets good. I watched him trying to find a seat. It felt like forever but he slowly walked up the steps stops in front of my row, but decides to turn to sit in front of the empty row. My head was exploding: "No NO NOO! Sit in this row." Saw him step down into the front row, move into the empty row... move out of the row? Steps up on my row? Passes me? AND PLOPS INTO THE SEAT AWAY FROM ME?!? Holy mother cow. Why would.. why would he do that? Why would he not just sit in the empty row in front of me? Why bother passing through my fat legs to get over a seat? It must be fate. Okay, so maybe I feel like... no waity, maybe I AM thinking too much into this. But dang was I happy. I just wished I could see his name when he logged in to the computer. I was hoping that he'd go on facebook too but he was a good kid and took notes on his laptop. *sigh*

Well, never gonna see him again once the quarter ended cause he never really sat near me again but we make occasional eye contact. Once the last day of final, his face is good-bye and I'll never see him ever.

Not until today. I was walking to choir with my friend Natasha and once I was about to reach the building, I saw a face, a face that I'd never see again. At first I couldn't make out if it was actually him, but it was. It was his lean body that were clothed in his white sweater and yeah, it was unbelievable that I saw him again. After all this time, through the thousands of people at Irvine, I saw this one guy that made me slightly freeze. It's not love. Not love at all. I don't know what's it is called but I do like the feeling. And I feel quite happy that I felt it again today because that feeling for me is really really rare.

Yes, I am quite the stalker.

-s00z3n <3 :)

I'm Stickin' to Eggplants

For dinner today, I bought myself a inexpensive sushi box which consisted of 16 sushis that only had avocados wrapped inside the rice and nori. Seeing that it was 16 for $4.09 than the 12 for $5.49, I thought I got my money's worth. WRONG! I now have an indigestion, and the only fumes that come out of my mouth are nasty essence of avocados. SO not my thing anymore. Wish I got something that had imitation fish crab.

Anywho, I can't wait until this week is over. Two midterms and no clothes to wear this week. Blah. One midterm is on Wednesday, and I don't understand anything. Accounting is so confusing. I don't know why I want to become a accountant in the first place. Oh wait, I do know, it dealt with math, the subject that is the love of my life. But yeah, even though this may kill me, I don't think I want to change my major. My second midterm is on Friday which is Art History. It's going to be an essay, so I'm pretty scared cause this'll be a first.

Just finished watching Music and Lyrics, with Hugh Grant and Drew Berrymore, when I should have been studying. *sigh* I still feel like barfing.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Super UN-Natural!

So my suite is in a current hype with Supernatural, the show with the two brothers... doing stuff.

So anyways, I don't know but I always get this feeling that people are pulling away from me so I get these subconscious thoughts running through my head thinking if it was something that I said or did and if they're talking about me behind my back. I know I might be acting a teensy weensy bit paranoid, no? Okay, a lot of paranoi..a. But still, if they don't act that way, they I won't think this way. But because they are acting that way, I'm thinking this way. So yeah... I'm totally paranoid. But still, it's just that the feeling... it's there. And I'm guessing that if you were in my shoes, you'd feel it too. How people are just pulling away from you and pushing you away and crap like that. I think I'm acting a bit spoiled. Just because they didn't really invite me to something doesn't mean they hate me. And just because they don't include me in a conversation doesn't mean they think I'm annoying. Or does it? Well I don't know. I hope it's not and that I'm being a good person. I really do like the people I hang out with. Maybe it's just too late in the night and I'm thinking weird thoughts.

I also think it's annoying of me to constantly chase after guys I can never reach, such as Korean drama actors, and fawn over them thinking they are some sort of gods. More than that is the fact that I like falling for gay guys. I mean they're gay and they're guys. They're going to be chasing after men, not a girl like muah. And especially Chris Colfer, a star and an awesomely beautiful and gorgeous gay guy, I don't have a single chance to ever meet and see him. Mercedes, you are one lucky girl to get a peck on the cheek from him. Love you too tho!

Oh and I suddenly remembered what I came to rant about. So my math midterm. I underestimated it. I thought it was going to be the easiest test ever, and it was! So I did my best to hurry and finish it but it still took a while. I thought I did well until we reviewed it and I found out that I totally blew it. Yesterday, I found out that I got a 89.84 on it. An effing B+. It totally kills me to see that it's my grade. I hate it so much. It was all due to laziness. There was this word "defined" which I didn't really know, but because of the assigned seats where I was stuck in the middle, I couldn't go out and teachers couldn't come in, and I was too lazy to raise my hand, so I just assumed it meant something. But on Tuesday, we discussed it and it totally meant something else, and if I'd only asked, I could have gotten those points. So stupid of me. This was supposedly the easiest test that he was going to give and I blew it. I'm still pretty mad at myself and I'm going to prepare to receive a huge scolding from my dad. This is just ridiculous. I'm really mad at myself and wish that this lazy habit can just change. Seriously.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Wow. Nearly a Week W/out Posting

Well, what can I say. College is consuming my life as it should. I haven't been really studying though, mainly due to Mario Kart, Korean Dramas, and other good stuff. I'm so excited now that 10 Things I Hate About You and GLEE is back. CHRIS COLFERRR!!! I truly love him. He is soo cute but too bad he's gay, which is why, I guess, I like him. *sigh*. I pity my life, chasing guys that I'm not even able to meet... scratch that, it's not so petty-ble. It's just plainly called being a crazy fan girl. Aw well.

First midterm of the quarter on Monday. Math and hopefully, it'll be easy. An essay assigned three days ago in Art History and a huge project for Econ that I have no clue one. Actually, I don't even know what's going on in Econ. Some accountant I'm going to be. Oh well.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Annoyed

So April 3 was my birthday and it was crappy like always. Well, it wasn't crappy. But it was boring. I stayed home alone watching dramas all day. Night I didn't even eat a lot because I was sitting to my Great Grand Uncle who complains about my weight. And in the end, I played, instead of 1 hour, TWO and A HALF hour of tennis. And that's how April 3rd ended. I did get my driver's licence though!

Well, came back to Irvine today around 2:30. Thank god! I love Irvine. Went to hang out and played basketball and volleyball. Fun. Ate and then chilled some more by playing Taboo. Friends got into a mini fight so one stormed off. Went to cut up some clothes and I did a bit of mini craft. Was fun. Gonna shower then sleep. So effing tired.

So basically, I'm annoyed with out RA. He's really effing biased. He hates our little group for like no reason. Too good for him I'll bet. Oh well. I'll elaborate on it next time.

Apparently, I'm a 38C and my cleavage is pretty big. I'll go cry now. WHY CAN'T I BE BOOB-LESS?!?!?!!?!

-s00z3n <3 :)

A Wish

I wish for many things just like everyone else. I wish I was skinnier and prettier. I wish I was a smart person who didn't have to study and play games all day. I wish I was more outgoing, meeting people so I can make new connections. I wish I can be happy even when I'm sad. And what I said isn't even a millionth of what I really want and wish for. I'm probably at my PMS-ing stage of the month but I'm happy that these thoughts can come to my head and sit there letting me think.

But honestly, what is the point of all this thinking. It doesn't lead to anywhere. This thinking is like seeing a gun. If I wanted to do anything, to see any change, I can't just stare at it but actually pull the trigger. I need to literally shoot for my goal. But I'm not.

I'm just sitting there, watching the time pass by, the people moving on while I'm staying back. I really want to stand and walk, walk forward and not look back. Walk and fall with no regrets, then get up and try to run. Will it ever get me anywhere? Will I choose the right path in the process? Will this make my wish come true? In reality, we won't know until we see, but personally, I think the answer to those questions are all "yes." Yes, it will take me somewhere. Yes, I will choose the right path because I have the ability to differentiate. Yes, what I do will make my wish come true. But all this takes action, it takes courage, it takes discipline. I can't be who I am now if I want to see any change. I can't be laid back and have things come to me. I am the one who has to work hard to reach my goal. I am the only one who can make my wish come true.

But for now, I believe I can say that I am satisfied and happy with who I am. Have a Happy April Fools Day.

-s00z3n <3 :)

My "Diet"

So yesterday, I ate like a Pregnant Woman:
--Breakfast--
fiber one bar
pop-tarts
hi-chew
bottle of water
--1st Lunch--
Teriyaki Burger
Bowl of Corn Soup
Chocolate Chip Cookie
Rice Krispy Treat Bar
2 smoothies
popsicle
--2nd Lunch--
Pink Lemonade
Plate of Pasta
Cookie
3 scoops of ice cream
--1st Dinner--
Cheddar Jalapeno Cheetos
Cheeto Hot Fries
Multigrain Crackers
Chocolate
Hi-Chew
--2nd Dinner--
Quiche
Pizza
Rice
Tacos
Pasta
--Midnight Snack--
Yogurtland

How many calories is that? Hmmm...
and I didn't exercise that day. *sigh*

-s00z3n <3 :)

Du Zhi Hao Uh!

I'm so hungry! Gah! Pippin isn't open until tomorrow for breakfast but I'm not even going to that. Brandywine boxed lunch FTW! :D

Any who, I'M BACK AT IRVINE! LOVE! I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. The talking, the inside jokes, just everything. Colleen and I came back around 4:30 and we unpacked everything. Took a mini nap until Simon called through our window and had to open up the door for him. Talks with Ana and Simon always make me happy esp including Jenny, Bonnie, Natasha, and Colleen! *sigh* Had Jack in the Box but I didn't buy anything. And went to watch Hachiko. Cutest dog ever!

Well, now that I'm back at Irvine, I won't blog as much. Class at 10 tomorrow!!

-s00z3n <3 :)

HAHA!

The Office is so cute! LOVE Michael and Dwight! haha I actually love everyone in there. So adorable and I think B. J. Novak is the cutest. ;) And Erin and Andy are AH-DORABLE!! X))

Well, I finished packing a while ago, but I'm not leaving to Irvine until tomorrow. *sigh* So bored at home. I can't wait until I see all my Stan Suite peeps and friends!! Can't wait to go back to Irvine. *sigh*

-s00z3n <3 :)

This is Epic Sad

So, I found out my grades of Winter Quarter.
Bio Sci: A --> Unbelievable... well believable, since I studied my arse off for that final, midterm, and midterm, so yes, I deserve it.
MGMT: A- --> THANK THE LORD! I barely fitted into the curve. But I still wish I did better on the first midterm cause I KNOW I would have definitely gotten an A if I paid more attention.
Anthro: A- --> I already ranted about it some days ago
Econ: A EFFING B!!!! --> STUPID STUPID STUPID! I DON'T EFFING DESERVE THAT GRADE CAUSE well maybe i do BUT STILL I WORKED AND STUDIED MY BUTT OFF! and I used up soo much money for that stupid extra credit which had no effect AT ALL! UGH!

And my dad is no help at all. I really hate it when parents says, "Oh, you can tell me your grades. I won't yell at you because I know it is a learning experience. Just tell me." So you effing tell them your grade (An effing B) and they treat it like it's the end of the world. "You're life going down the drain. You're not going to get into a good grad school. Your grades sucks. It's the worst of the worst. Dean's list? What is a dean's list? What so good about dean's list? You get a B. You fail. Why you no do good?" etc. etc.

Okay, my dad just called to give my more criticism: "You are shit. You should have called me for help before the final. You always make shitty move. You are a girl with no brains. See me. When I take econ, I always get A's. But you, you are so stupid and brainless, always get B's. Next time, don't put yourself in a shit position."

One, why thank you dad. I study my effing butt off only to get such NICE remarks from you. Thanks, I really needed it.
Two, hmm. Sometimes I wonder why I don't ask you for help. Oh yeah, that's right. Whenever I ask you for help, you always seem to go on a half an hour tangent about how I'm dumb and a smart person wouldn't need their parent's help. Well, I wanna be smart, okay. and No, I do not need my time to be wasted than it already is.
Three, I learn from this okay. I don't like getting B's either but from this, I can gain experience. If I always get A's, what am I suppose to learn? That I'm smart? NO. I don't learn anything. From this, I can push myself harder, motivate myself more. And I'm telling you, straight A's doesn't let me do that. Straight A's gets me to plunge down even more. When you're already at the top, you don't get any higher. You're bound to fall.

I typed this out not because I don't want straight A's. It is because I really did my best and I wish that you can see that. Honestly, I want to get straight A's more than you want me too. You won't always be there to help me. I need to help myself. And I'm starting now, in college. I'm going to depend on myself. If I get a B, I get a B. I can't do anything but learn to accept and do better next time.

now, i can't get texting. ugh. shoot me.

and my mom just told me a mouse went up my grandpa's car and chewed off the wires. The cost of fixing it is $3000. Stupid right?

-s00z3n

If Only There were portable beds.

Life is pretty dull right now. I was up at 6 in the morning helping my dad and me to get ready to leave for work. I wish I was at Irvine. I'd be sleeping still and then probably wake up at 10 or something. *sigh* I miss Irvine and dorm-ing... which reminds me. Two days ago, Colleen told me that she's been dropped from CV cause she didn't pay the bills on time. It wasn't her fault; the bill never showed up on her zot account. What was she expected to do? Nothing so the housing better let her get back on CV cause she's my roommate still.

Well, last night, my dad and I watched Yesman. It was pretty cute and a bit funny. Jim Carrey never gets old. I still love him from Ace Ventura, Pet Detective. Haha. I shall go read manga now. :/

Grades come out today. X(

-s00z3n <3 :)

Dear God,

I LOVE YOU!!!!! SO MUCH!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LETTING ME PASS THE DRIVING TEST!!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!

I can literally cry tears of happiness. Who would have thought that I would pass my driving test and at Pasadena too! FIRST TRY! I'm soo happy. People can only miss 15. Guess how many I missed. THAT'S RIGHT. FOURTEEN! ONE and FOUR --> FOURTEEN!! 14!! I missed 14. If I missed two more, then I would have FAILED!! BUT I DIDN'T!! MUHAHAHA!

Okay, elation over. So yes, I took the driving test today. My instructor picked me up and surprisingly, there was another old dude in the car. I found out that he was going to take the test too. Drove to the DMV and waited a bit. I was about to take the test, but the tester, whose name was Robert and had a very scary aura, was all like You can't take the test because you need the eye examine. I was like sh*t, so I got out of the car thinking that I wasted my whole time freaking out about driving when I should have been freaking out about probably my eyes or something. But he told me if I had my glasses and pass the eye exam, then I could take the test. So obviously, I passed my eye exam with my glasses, so off to the road we go.

Did the pre-test thingy and began to drive. Driving felt like forever. I was so happy that I didn't hit the curb when parking and reversing. SO HAPPY! So eventually, I finished the driving test, followed by this HUGE lecture how I was an awful driver cause I don't stop to look and how I never look and how I could have crashed like 3 times. But GUESS WHAT! I MISSED FOURTEEN SO I PASSED! I DON'T CARE IF I EVER DRIVE AGAIN! I GOT MY LICENSE!!! SUSAN: 1, DMV: 0. BOO YAH!

Trying to play Don't Stop Believing on the piano. Surprisingly, it isn't hard. d(^-^)b

-s00z3n <3 :)

Hurdle after Hurdle

Today was some sad day. Not really really sad. Sad enough for it to be not a happy day. Why? CAUSE I GOT AN A- <-- A MINUS!!!! on Anthro. So STUPID! For my final, I got a 26/30 but my overall score was a 91!!! GAH!! A-! I COULD HAVE GOTTEN A 94 IF ONLY I DIDN'T DITCH THAT DAY AND TOOK THE QUIZ!!! I ditched that lecture all because of stupid assassins. If I wasn't to paranoid, I could have went and taken that quiz and got the three points that I needed for the SOLID A! LORDDDDD!!! SO SADD!!! UGH!! But I think I can live the A-... not really.

Well, tomorrow is my driving test. WISH ME LUCK!! Taking the test early in the morning, around 9 and probably going to fail it since I'm taking it at Pasadena. Yep, seriously going to fail. But if I pass, I will kiss the ground and be the happiest girl in the world! SERIOUSLY!! I"M A BAD DRIVER BUT I THINK I DESERVE TO PASS IF I TRY REALLY HARD AND DO MY BEST!!

-s00z3n <3 :)

Well, Today was Stupid

Today's Supposed Plan:
9 - 1:30: do random crap at home
1:30 - 3:30: driving lesson
3:30: watch guy's tennis, but actually talking to Marsha and later meeting Irene.

What Actually Happened:
9 - 2: did the random crap
2 - FRICKING 5:30 : driving class with a pretty annoying teacher and then had a nasty butt cramp
5:30: got to HS and EVERYTHING WAS OVER: the tennis game, couldn't find Marsha, Irene left for home.

UGH! DISAPPOINTMENT!!

-s00z3n

Probably one of the Happiest Day in My Life

Today was just an ordinary day.... not really. I didn't have much to do since it is Spring Break. Slept until 9, poured my breakfast down the toilet (who eats oatmeals anyway?), so I went to grab my lunch that my mum prepared me and sat in front of the computer to watch Down with Love. Effing LOVE that drama. Jerry Yan and Elle are both soo cute. I must say Jerry's acting improved quite a lot. Elle is sometimes annoying by being too over dramatic but I guess I can forgive her for being cute. hehe. But LOVE that drama. I also like the older sister. She's adorable because her outer appearance seems mature, but inside, she's still a lovesick child. Ke-ai! 可爱!

Well, later I went to check my grade to see if it came out and BIO SCI DID! and guess what? I GOT AN A!!!! I'M SO HAPPY! Working hard does pay off!! <33 I can't get over this fact that I actually got an A. A solid one too! BEST DAY EVER!! but what's sad is that this might be my ONLY A ever. D: Hope not though! I'm still going to try my hardest! JIA YUO! 加油! 加油! 加油!

-s00z3n <3 :)

A Great Feeling

A very nice feeling is when you don't waste anything and you get free stuff. I was just thinking how nice it felt to use up all my swipes -- my 100 swipes -- and seeing the register show a big 0. That felt good because I know I did not waste a single meal. Unlike last quarter, I had around 3 left over and it was wasted when the new quarter started. Now, when spring quarter starts, I have a new 100 meal swipes and an addition $75 in my zotbuck account. That feeling is love.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Winter Quarter OVER!!

I can't believe that winter quarter is already over. I mean, I don't even know if I can get over the fact that fall quarter was ten weeks ago. Even though my grades might not be so great this quarter, I really liked the classes I took this quarter. No writing. Classes with friends. Cute guys to stalk at... jkay. But seriously, this quarter was great due to the awesome weather as well. Fall was HOT and spring will be ever HOTTER! It isn't even really spring and it is like SUMMER!! S/2 But yeah, I'll miss this quarter loads.

But I shall stay optimistic. I will see that I have a great time this spring quarter. Classes with friends again! Simon in Philosophy. Karen in Econ. No one in math. D: Kevin, Simon, Ana (?), and Bonnie in Art History. And Natasha, Ana, Jenny, and Bonnie (?) in Choir. <333 I can't wait. My schedule is pretty intense though. Two 3 hr night classes and math at 12, 5 days a week, every week. HORRIBLE! but I'll try to love it anyway :)

But dang it, no more of that cute guy in my MANAGEMENT CLASS!!

-s00z3n <3 :)

Might I Add

One thing that annoys me is the act of reflection. Reflecting is, of course, not a bad thing. People reflect on their past mistakes. They can reflect on many things. One thing I don't see the point of reflection is if they don't take any action.

The people that reflect but don't take any action are, might I bluntly put it, wasting their time. Oh look, our world is corrupted but I'll just be a bystander staring at it get even worse. Oh, I see people dying on the news or whatever. What is the point of reflecting if you're not going to take any action?! I'm pretty sure that the idea crossed your mind about how you would like to fix or "save" the world, but from what I'm seeing, that isn't happening. You're just sitting on your butt, thinking how you may be the superhero but in reality you're not. Either you suck it up and be part of the system or you break away from the system and actually do something. Don't just sit their thinking cause it can't get you very far.

Don't be part of the wall.

-s00z3n <3 :)

The Truth

Sometimes, the truth is that you can't tell the truth. As much as you want to, you just can't because it's going to hurt people. I feel that the truth hurts more than lies do. Well, that's just sort of my little unnecessary comment.

Finals this week and I feel pretty screwed because I haven't studied at all. I've been facebook stalking (well, stalking was my professional job back in high school) and just not working hard. I hate it a lot. I know I should focus and work hard but I wonder why I am so not motivated.

Went to Albertsons today and bought a whole load of crap that'll make me die sooner. Very unnecessary but a must.

Today was the last day of lectures this quarter. Time flies so fast. I really can't believe that Winter Quarter is almost over. I still remember the beginning when I was so excitedly anticipating the goodness of what this quarter will bring. Unluckily, it brought nothing but a lot of drama. I like drama, but not just real life ones. Oh well, back to work.

I have 5 swipes left.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Paranoia Pt. 3

So I'm still alive. So far, I killed Danny, Heather, and Sandy, and I hate to say it, but I feeeeel good. hehe. My would be killer, Alvin, is now dead too b/c he couldn't get me within the time limit. He must me piiiiissed at me. I feel like he'd get a gun and shoot me or something. *shudders* My next target was a girl called Stephanie but since she didn't reach the time limit as well, she's dead. Her target was Shiang, so now I have Shiang, so he better go on a killing spree or I'm going to beat him up.

I'm scared about this now, since I don't know who's going to kill me. Paranoia X5

-s00z3n <3 :)

Paranoia Pt. 2

Okay. So this time, I won't talk about my paranoia with this game of assassins. I'm just trying to show that this is a continuation of my blabs on it.

Well, just like I said, I'm not paranoid anymore. I have a feeling much worse. I feel horrible killing two people already. I hate that I got people from my suite; I'm not that close to them. If I were close and I killed them, they'd be alright with it. If I got someone I really didn't know from another suite, I wouldn't really care about their feelings. But these two people, I'm their acquaintance/friend. I feel so bad for killing them. It is just something that I had to do. I feel like suicide, but I'll try to get another one before I do that. Ah well. I'm still feeling horrible.

Oh, and I want to mention. You know those murderers in the real world. How can they ever kill a person? The feeling, the tension, the fast heart beat of insane panic. How in the world are they able to suppress that feeling? I, for one, am not able to do that.

-s00z3n

Paranoia

I never thought I would be this paranoid. Our hall is playing Assassins and dang it, I'm in my room 24/7 since it is the safe zone. My back feels so insecure. If you don't know assassins is a game where you get a person's name from a hall and you have to either hit them with a sock, salt their drink, or post-it note their back. You need to try to them him/her before another person gets you. Safe places are your room, restroom, lecture hall, study room, and common room. I hate that my room is pretty far away from the restroom because I feel like I'm going to get hit every time I step outside. It sucks that I'm scared to go to classes too, so staying in my room 24/7 is the only option. *SIGH*

Movies!

So I kind of feel bad for making this post on the last day of February, seeing how I promised that I would update more. But honestly, what can I say? I know that if I blogged everyday, it would be quite boring, so yeah.

Anyways, this week is Week 9! The quarter is almost over! I'm so sad because one more quarter, then it's all over. My first year in college is gone. Sigh, so depressing. But on a happier note, I got my first A on a midterm in college ever! Yay for me! It was a bio sci midterm; the curve was 32 and up out of 38 was an A, and I got a 32! So yay for me, though I'm sad that my average is a 31, which is a B. Grr. I shall work harder!! But it's not probably going to happen seeing how I overslept the next day for lecture.

Well, I got to stay this weekend. I didn't even work a lot yesterday. D: Instead, I played the DS 24/7. But hey, Cooking Mama is addicting and you know it. Mario Kart as well. Last night, we decided to go to the movies. Bonnie, Colleen, Kevin, Shiang, and I went to watch When in Rome and then Shutter Island. We were going to watch Dear John first then movie hop to When in Rome, but then decided to do When in Rome and Shutter Island cause the previously mentioned would be overload of Chick Flicks.

I loved When in Rome! There were parts that I didn't really like, such as the fact that it was too fast! There were barely any parts of Lance, the magician, (JOHN HEDER!! with his amazing cute hair) and I think it developed really fast. But it was pretty good. I liked the whole load and I like the painter as well. Will Arnett played Anthony who was a painter. Even though I didn't fancy his character, I loved him in Arrested Development as GOB. Well, even though this movie had a lot of criticism, I thought it wasn't too bad. But GAHHH!!! I LOVE JOHN HEDER. LOOKED EXCEPTIONALLY CUTE!! <33

Then we movie hopped to Shutter Island. It was soo crazy! I could barely follow. So much psychology inside that whole process. But I seriously liked Leonardo DiCaprio's acting. Even though I think I'm a great actress (JKay), I would not be able to do such difficult and amazing acting. I'd seriously go crazy. So yeah, I was pretty impressed with the movie. And I yeah, I was going to say some spoilers but decided against it. hehe.

On the way back, which was around 12ish, KEVIN HIT A RACCOON! ROADKILL! WOOT!

to the animal lovers: i'm just kidding :X

-s00z3n <3 :)

Winter Olympics is Here!

Yesterday, I ate at Pippin and experienced the chocolate fountain. Heaven, much? Well, not much happened lately. I forget when, but this week I bought at cardigan! I wore it yesterday and loved it cause the fabric felt awesome.

This week is a long weekend: Presidents Day and Chinese New Year. I’m kind of happy to be back at home right now. It’s kind of like a vacation day away from college. lol I’m happy though. Even though my grades are not that great right now, getting straight B’s again =_=, but I think/hope that I can pull it up. Don’t worry. I’m working hard… hopefully. :)

-s00z3n <3 :)

I'm Craving FroYo

So yesterday, I had a Management midterm that was quite difficult. I hope I did well enough, and I hope that there is going to be a curve that makes me get an A. I really do try hard.

Today was just another typical day in Irvine. Go to class and come back to play Mario Kart, where everyone throws cuss words at each other whenever they get overlapped. Shouts and screams rarely ever stop here.

Tomorrow is a Valentine Theme Dinner at Pippin. I can't wait cause there is going to be a chocolate fountain!! I'm craving strawberries!! :9

-s00z3n

Another Dark Heart Moment

So today, bad news came upon bad news and on and on. First, I found out that my mom was in a car crash. I don't know the specific details (since my dad always tends to exaggerates, but still believable depending on certain aspects) but I really hope she would stop doing this. Ever since I was little, she getting into car crashes was like a hobby. Seven big ones, and a myriad of tiny ones. I don't know how many times my dad had to go to the insurance company to see what is going to happen, him being the English speaking parent and my mom, not knowing an ounce of English. This is so frustrateing. My mom takes life so lightly. She doesn't care about the consequences. She believes that life is a game that anyone can win. It isn't. It is more than that. Life is something that needs to be taken seriously because one major mistake, then you're out.

But, the sad thing is, I can't say, or I shouldn't say these things about my mom of how she takes life so leisurely. Why? Because I do too. I feel so bad, but I have to admit that I'm not all too hard-working either. These two days, I've been attempting to study for my MGMT midterm on Tuesday, but the fact that I know that I still have one more day to "study" and that it is an open-note test, keeps me away from the studying that I want to do. I feel really bad for not being proficient in working. It sucks. I'm just really sad right now, with all the pain my dad is enduring. GOD, I wish something good will happen for once, but that only happens in movies...

And I bit myself today, like 3 times, in the same place.

-s00z3n

Weekend Stay Over

This quarter, I did not get the privilege to choose if I can stay back at Irvine or go home. Due to my bad grades from the previous quarter, my dad claims that I must go home every weekend so he can keep an eye on me. This weekend, though, was raining and since Colleen wasn't going home, he had to drive to pick me up except he didn't want to. So, here I am, at Irvine over the weekend. Yay.

-later-
Okay, I just came back from brunch and I will do homework. I WILL do homework. So anyways, last night, my suite watched The Time Traveler's Wife, and it was sad. I got teary about 3 times. Such a sad story. Even though it was pretty confusing, it made sense, somewhat. I liked the book and the movie wasn't that bad either, except they missed a crucial part of how Claire was old and Henry saw her from behind, etc. That, to me, was extremely touching in the book, but they didn't show that in the movie. Oh well. Okay, NOW I'm going to work.