My "Diet"

So yesterday, I ate like a Pregnant Woman:
--Breakfast--
fiber one bar
pop-tarts
hi-chew
bottle of water
--1st Lunch--
Teriyaki Burger
Bowl of Corn Soup
Chocolate Chip Cookie
Rice Krispy Treat Bar
2 smoothies
popsicle
--2nd Lunch--
Pink Lemonade
Plate of Pasta
Cookie
3 scoops of ice cream
--1st Dinner--
Cheddar Jalapeno Cheetos
Cheeto Hot Fries
Multigrain Crackers
Chocolate
Hi-Chew
--2nd Dinner--
Quiche
Pizza
Rice
Tacos
Pasta
--Midnight Snack--
Yogurtland

How many calories is that? Hmmm...
and I didn't exercise that day. *sigh*

-s00z3n <3 :)

Du Zhi Hao Uh!

I'm so hungry! Gah! Pippin isn't open until tomorrow for breakfast but I'm not even going to that. Brandywine boxed lunch FTW! :D

Any who, I'M BACK AT IRVINE! LOVE! I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. The talking, the inside jokes, just everything. Colleen and I came back around 4:30 and we unpacked everything. Took a mini nap until Simon called through our window and had to open up the door for him. Talks with Ana and Simon always make me happy esp including Jenny, Bonnie, Natasha, and Colleen! *sigh* Had Jack in the Box but I didn't buy anything. And went to watch Hachiko. Cutest dog ever!

Well, now that I'm back at Irvine, I won't blog as much. Class at 10 tomorrow!!

-s00z3n <3 :)

HAHA!

The Office is so cute! LOVE Michael and Dwight! haha I actually love everyone in there. So adorable and I think B. J. Novak is the cutest. ;) And Erin and Andy are AH-DORABLE!! X))

Well, I finished packing a while ago, but I'm not leaving to Irvine until tomorrow. *sigh* So bored at home. I can't wait until I see all my Stan Suite peeps and friends!! Can't wait to go back to Irvine. *sigh*

-s00z3n <3 :)

This is Epic Sad

So, I found out my grades of Winter Quarter.
Bio Sci: A --> Unbelievable... well believable, since I studied my arse off for that final, midterm, and midterm, so yes, I deserve it.
MGMT: A- --> THANK THE LORD! I barely fitted into the curve. But I still wish I did better on the first midterm cause I KNOW I would have definitely gotten an A if I paid more attention.
Anthro: A- --> I already ranted about it some days ago
Econ: A EFFING B!!!! --> STUPID STUPID STUPID! I DON'T EFFING DESERVE THAT GRADE CAUSE well maybe i do BUT STILL I WORKED AND STUDIED MY BUTT OFF! and I used up soo much money for that stupid extra credit which had no effect AT ALL! UGH!

And my dad is no help at all. I really hate it when parents says, "Oh, you can tell me your grades. I won't yell at you because I know it is a learning experience. Just tell me." So you effing tell them your grade (An effing B) and they treat it like it's the end of the world. "You're life going down the drain. You're not going to get into a good grad school. Your grades sucks. It's the worst of the worst. Dean's list? What is a dean's list? What so good about dean's list? You get a B. You fail. Why you no do good?" etc. etc.

Okay, my dad just called to give my more criticism: "You are shit. You should have called me for help before the final. You always make shitty move. You are a girl with no brains. See me. When I take econ, I always get A's. But you, you are so stupid and brainless, always get B's. Next time, don't put yourself in a shit position."

One, why thank you dad. I study my effing butt off only to get such NICE remarks from you. Thanks, I really needed it.
Two, hmm. Sometimes I wonder why I don't ask you for help. Oh yeah, that's right. Whenever I ask you for help, you always seem to go on a half an hour tangent about how I'm dumb and a smart person wouldn't need their parent's help. Well, I wanna be smart, okay. and No, I do not need my time to be wasted than it already is.
Three, I learn from this okay. I don't like getting B's either but from this, I can gain experience. If I always get A's, what am I suppose to learn? That I'm smart? NO. I don't learn anything. From this, I can push myself harder, motivate myself more. And I'm telling you, straight A's doesn't let me do that. Straight A's gets me to plunge down even more. When you're already at the top, you don't get any higher. You're bound to fall.

I typed this out not because I don't want straight A's. It is because I really did my best and I wish that you can see that. Honestly, I want to get straight A's more than you want me too. You won't always be there to help me. I need to help myself. And I'm starting now, in college. I'm going to depend on myself. If I get a B, I get a B. I can't do anything but learn to accept and do better next time.

now, i can't get texting. ugh. shoot me.

and my mom just told me a mouse went up my grandpa's car and chewed off the wires. The cost of fixing it is $3000. Stupid right?

-s00z3n

If Only There were portable beds.

Life is pretty dull right now. I was up at 6 in the morning helping my dad and me to get ready to leave for work. I wish I was at Irvine. I'd be sleeping still and then probably wake up at 10 or something. *sigh* I miss Irvine and dorm-ing... which reminds me. Two days ago, Colleen told me that she's been dropped from CV cause she didn't pay the bills on time. It wasn't her fault; the bill never showed up on her zot account. What was she expected to do? Nothing so the housing better let her get back on CV cause she's my roommate still.

Well, last night, my dad and I watched Yesman. It was pretty cute and a bit funny. Jim Carrey never gets old. I still love him from Ace Ventura, Pet Detective. Haha. I shall go read manga now. :/

Grades come out today. X(

-s00z3n <3 :)

Dear God,

I LOVE YOU!!!!! SO MUCH!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LETTING ME PASS THE DRIVING TEST!!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!

I can literally cry tears of happiness. Who would have thought that I would pass my driving test and at Pasadena too! FIRST TRY! I'm soo happy. People can only miss 15. Guess how many I missed. THAT'S RIGHT. FOURTEEN! ONE and FOUR --> FOURTEEN!! 14!! I missed 14. If I missed two more, then I would have FAILED!! BUT I DIDN'T!! MUHAHAHA!

Okay, elation over. So yes, I took the driving test today. My instructor picked me up and surprisingly, there was another old dude in the car. I found out that he was going to take the test too. Drove to the DMV and waited a bit. I was about to take the test, but the tester, whose name was Robert and had a very scary aura, was all like You can't take the test because you need the eye examine. I was like sh*t, so I got out of the car thinking that I wasted my whole time freaking out about driving when I should have been freaking out about probably my eyes or something. But he told me if I had my glasses and pass the eye exam, then I could take the test. So obviously, I passed my eye exam with my glasses, so off to the road we go.

Did the pre-test thingy and began to drive. Driving felt like forever. I was so happy that I didn't hit the curb when parking and reversing. SO HAPPY! So eventually, I finished the driving test, followed by this HUGE lecture how I was an awful driver cause I don't stop to look and how I never look and how I could have crashed like 3 times. But GUESS WHAT! I MISSED FOURTEEN SO I PASSED! I DON'T CARE IF I EVER DRIVE AGAIN! I GOT MY LICENSE!!! SUSAN: 1, DMV: 0. BOO YAH!

Trying to play Don't Stop Believing on the piano. Surprisingly, it isn't hard. d(^-^)b

-s00z3n <3 :)

Hurdle after Hurdle

Today was some sad day. Not really really sad. Sad enough for it to be not a happy day. Why? CAUSE I GOT AN A- <-- A MINUS!!!! on Anthro. So STUPID! For my final, I got a 26/30 but my overall score was a 91!!! GAH!! A-! I COULD HAVE GOTTEN A 94 IF ONLY I DIDN'T DITCH THAT DAY AND TOOK THE QUIZ!!! I ditched that lecture all because of stupid assassins. If I wasn't to paranoid, I could have went and taken that quiz and got the three points that I needed for the SOLID A! LORDDDDD!!! SO SADD!!! UGH!! But I think I can live the A-... not really.

Well, tomorrow is my driving test. WISH ME LUCK!! Taking the test early in the morning, around 9 and probably going to fail it since I'm taking it at Pasadena. Yep, seriously going to fail. But if I pass, I will kiss the ground and be the happiest girl in the world! SERIOUSLY!! I"M A BAD DRIVER BUT I THINK I DESERVE TO PASS IF I TRY REALLY HARD AND DO MY BEST!!

-s00z3n <3 :)

Well, Today was Stupid

Today's Supposed Plan:
9 - 1:30: do random crap at home
1:30 - 3:30: driving lesson
3:30: watch guy's tennis, but actually talking to Marsha and later meeting Irene.

What Actually Happened:
9 - 2: did the random crap
2 - FRICKING 5:30 : driving class with a pretty annoying teacher and then had a nasty butt cramp
5:30: got to HS and EVERYTHING WAS OVER: the tennis game, couldn't find Marsha, Irene left for home.

UGH! DISAPPOINTMENT!!

-s00z3n

Probably one of the Happiest Day in My Life

Today was just an ordinary day.... not really. I didn't have much to do since it is Spring Break. Slept until 9, poured my breakfast down the toilet (who eats oatmeals anyway?), so I went to grab my lunch that my mum prepared me and sat in front of the computer to watch Down with Love. Effing LOVE that drama. Jerry Yan and Elle are both soo cute. I must say Jerry's acting improved quite a lot. Elle is sometimes annoying by being too over dramatic but I guess I can forgive her for being cute. hehe. But LOVE that drama. I also like the older sister. She's adorable because her outer appearance seems mature, but inside, she's still a lovesick child. Ke-ai! 可爱!

Well, later I went to check my grade to see if it came out and BIO SCI DID! and guess what? I GOT AN A!!!! I'M SO HAPPY! Working hard does pay off!! <33 I can't get over this fact that I actually got an A. A solid one too! BEST DAY EVER!! but what's sad is that this might be my ONLY A ever. D: Hope not though! I'm still going to try my hardest! JIA YUO! 加油! 加油! 加油!

-s00z3n <3 :)

A Great Feeling

A very nice feeling is when you don't waste anything and you get free stuff. I was just thinking how nice it felt to use up all my swipes -- my 100 swipes -- and seeing the register show a big 0. That felt good because I know I did not waste a single meal. Unlike last quarter, I had around 3 left over and it was wasted when the new quarter started. Now, when spring quarter starts, I have a new 100 meal swipes and an addition $75 in my zotbuck account. That feeling is love.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Winter Quarter OVER!!

I can't believe that winter quarter is already over. I mean, I don't even know if I can get over the fact that fall quarter was ten weeks ago. Even though my grades might not be so great this quarter, I really liked the classes I took this quarter. No writing. Classes with friends. Cute guys to stalk at... jkay. But seriously, this quarter was great due to the awesome weather as well. Fall was HOT and spring will be ever HOTTER! It isn't even really spring and it is like SUMMER!! S/2 But yeah, I'll miss this quarter loads.

But I shall stay optimistic. I will see that I have a great time this spring quarter. Classes with friends again! Simon in Philosophy. Karen in Econ. No one in math. D: Kevin, Simon, Ana (?), and Bonnie in Art History. And Natasha, Ana, Jenny, and Bonnie (?) in Choir. <333 I can't wait. My schedule is pretty intense though. Two 3 hr night classes and math at 12, 5 days a week, every week. HORRIBLE! but I'll try to love it anyway :)

But dang it, no more of that cute guy in my MANAGEMENT CLASS!!

-s00z3n <3 :)

Might I Add

One thing that annoys me is the act of reflection. Reflecting is, of course, not a bad thing. People reflect on their past mistakes. They can reflect on many things. One thing I don't see the point of reflection is if they don't take any action.

The people that reflect but don't take any action are, might I bluntly put it, wasting their time. Oh look, our world is corrupted but I'll just be a bystander staring at it get even worse. Oh, I see people dying on the news or whatever. What is the point of reflecting if you're not going to take any action?! I'm pretty sure that the idea crossed your mind about how you would like to fix or "save" the world, but from what I'm seeing, that isn't happening. You're just sitting on your butt, thinking how you may be the superhero but in reality you're not. Either you suck it up and be part of the system or you break away from the system and actually do something. Don't just sit their thinking cause it can't get you very far.

Don't be part of the wall.

-s00z3n <3 :)

The Truth

Sometimes, the truth is that you can't tell the truth. As much as you want to, you just can't because it's going to hurt people. I feel that the truth hurts more than lies do. Well, that's just sort of my little unnecessary comment.

Finals this week and I feel pretty screwed because I haven't studied at all. I've been facebook stalking (well, stalking was my professional job back in high school) and just not working hard. I hate it a lot. I know I should focus and work hard but I wonder why I am so not motivated.

Went to Albertsons today and bought a whole load of crap that'll make me die sooner. Very unnecessary but a must.

Today was the last day of lectures this quarter. Time flies so fast. I really can't believe that Winter Quarter is almost over. I still remember the beginning when I was so excitedly anticipating the goodness of what this quarter will bring. Unluckily, it brought nothing but a lot of drama. I like drama, but not just real life ones. Oh well, back to work.

I have 5 swipes left.

-s00z3n <3 :)

Paranoia Pt. 3

So I'm still alive. So far, I killed Danny, Heather, and Sandy, and I hate to say it, but I feeeeel good. hehe. My would be killer, Alvin, is now dead too b/c he couldn't get me within the time limit. He must me piiiiissed at me. I feel like he'd get a gun and shoot me or something. *shudders* My next target was a girl called Stephanie but since she didn't reach the time limit as well, she's dead. Her target was Shiang, so now I have Shiang, so he better go on a killing spree or I'm going to beat him up.

I'm scared about this now, since I don't know who's going to kill me. Paranoia X5

-s00z3n <3 :)

Paranoia Pt. 2

Okay. So this time, I won't talk about my paranoia with this game of assassins. I'm just trying to show that this is a continuation of my blabs on it.

Well, just like I said, I'm not paranoid anymore. I have a feeling much worse. I feel horrible killing two people already. I hate that I got people from my suite; I'm not that close to them. If I were close and I killed them, they'd be alright with it. If I got someone I really didn't know from another suite, I wouldn't really care about their feelings. But these two people, I'm their acquaintance/friend. I feel so bad for killing them. It is just something that I had to do. I feel like suicide, but I'll try to get another one before I do that. Ah well. I'm still feeling horrible.

Oh, and I want to mention. You know those murderers in the real world. How can they ever kill a person? The feeling, the tension, the fast heart beat of insane panic. How in the world are they able to suppress that feeling? I, for one, am not able to do that.

-s00z3n

Paranoia

I never thought I would be this paranoid. Our hall is playing Assassins and dang it, I'm in my room 24/7 since it is the safe zone. My back feels so insecure. If you don't know assassins is a game where you get a person's name from a hall and you have to either hit them with a sock, salt their drink, or post-it note their back. You need to try to them him/her before another person gets you. Safe places are your room, restroom, lecture hall, study room, and common room. I hate that my room is pretty far away from the restroom because I feel like I'm going to get hit every time I step outside. It sucks that I'm scared to go to classes too, so staying in my room 24/7 is the only option. *SIGH*