Super UN-Natural!

So my suite is in a current hype with Supernatural, the show with the two brothers... doing stuff.

So anyways, I don't know but I always get this feeling that people are pulling away from me so I get these subconscious thoughts running through my head thinking if it was something that I said or did and if they're talking about me behind my back. I know I might be acting a teensy weensy bit paranoid, no? Okay, a lot of paranoi..a. But still, if they don't act that way, they I won't think this way. But because they are acting that way, I'm thinking this way. So yeah... I'm totally paranoid. But still, it's just that the feeling... it's there. And I'm guessing that if you were in my shoes, you'd feel it too. How people are just pulling away from you and pushing you away and crap like that. I think I'm acting a bit spoiled. Just because they didn't really invite me to something doesn't mean they hate me. And just because they don't include me in a conversation doesn't mean they think I'm annoying. Or does it? Well I don't know. I hope it's not and that I'm being a good person. I really do like the people I hang out with. Maybe it's just too late in the night and I'm thinking weird thoughts.

I also think it's annoying of me to constantly chase after guys I can never reach, such as Korean drama actors, and fawn over them thinking they are some sort of gods. More than that is the fact that I like falling for gay guys. I mean they're gay and they're guys. They're going to be chasing after men, not a girl like muah. And especially Chris Colfer, a star and an awesomely beautiful and gorgeous gay guy, I don't have a single chance to ever meet and see him. Mercedes, you are one lucky girl to get a peck on the cheek from him. Love you too tho!

Oh and I suddenly remembered what I came to rant about. So my math midterm. I underestimated it. I thought it was going to be the easiest test ever, and it was! So I did my best to hurry and finish it but it still took a while. I thought I did well until we reviewed it and I found out that I totally blew it. Yesterday, I found out that I got a 89.84 on it. An effing B+. It totally kills me to see that it's my grade. I hate it so much. It was all due to laziness. There was this word "defined" which I didn't really know, but because of the assigned seats where I was stuck in the middle, I couldn't go out and teachers couldn't come in, and I was too lazy to raise my hand, so I just assumed it meant something. But on Tuesday, we discussed it and it totally meant something else, and if I'd only asked, I could have gotten those points. So stupid of me. This was supposedly the easiest test that he was going to give and I blew it. I'm still pretty mad at myself and I'm going to prepare to receive a huge scolding from my dad. This is just ridiculous. I'm really mad at myself and wish that this lazy habit can just change. Seriously.

-s00z3n <3 :)